infectious and DNR

Its funny how i’m so fascinated with death that my curiosity left me with fear of “why now”...

Monday, our dog died of rabies, which according to my vet med classmate was a dumb case. And yes there are two types of rabies infection, the dumb one where the dog would have paranoia of being hurt even though you’re 5 meters away from him (take note even a sound frightens him) and the other one is the wild type which is the typical form where the dog rages to bite you. I didn’t knew he had one that’s why i even loosened his neck of his band Sunday prior to his death and after my arrival from my climb to Gulugod mountain. The thing is he isn’t yet showing signs of the disease that day. My worry now is whether he could infect me through aerial transmission. Although i didnt touch his oral cavity nor went any near to it, still the fear that i might have been infected is really stressing me off. Anyway, i still have 14 days till i see the signs of muscle cramps, dryness of the throat, fever, headache and of course paranoia. I’m not too enthusiastic of it though you can tell i am by the way i construct these statements.

Just come to think of it i might die of a very undignified sense. How pathetic could i get, i dont have a lover, im pathetic, my ex’s seemed to be nonexistent and im feeling stressed out of all this. BUT I’M STILL SAFE!!!! Anyone of you who dares to kiss me DO IT! JUST DO IT...i badly need it! Nya ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.................HA!