ULAN

Ulan

For the past days, it’s raining like hell. Brownout. No cable. No dial tone. Not much to do than to make “tunganga”….then pig out. Binge eating. Endless kulitan with my hon. Im glad I have a hon who always responds to my non sense SMS and who always makes it a point to remind me to eat, wake up, wake up and eat, eat , take a shower, wake up….such a bad routinely activity. I love rainy days. Love to laze around. Love the cold weather. But I hate to think about its effects to the less fortunate who are at risk to lose their properties and lives because of such lovely days for me. Sigh!….how can some things that make me feel good turn out to have bad effects for others? …that’s the irony of life I guess. I should be more selfless sometimes.

Heard the bad news about a vessel that sank coz of the typhoon. Prayed for the victims and their families. My nani also texted me that he prayed for them this morning. Im glad I left Cebu on time prior to the arrival of the typhoon in the area. I only stayed there for 2 days but it felt like forever coz I did a lot of meetings, meetings, meetings. And I was away from my nani again for the nth time! My honey has been constantly reminding me to relax, eat on time, take a nap, etc. etc while Im always on out of town trips. Im so lucky to have him in my life coz my situation is really pathetic at work…imagine, if I’m still single and I have this stressful job and I got stranded in Cebu because of the typhoon? …..I might end up hanging myself inside my hotel room if my serotonin level goes below the acceptable limits to cause me major depressive disorder…Im glad I have my nani who helps me keep the thin line that separates sanity from insanity….

Tomorrow, I’m contemplating on not reporting for work. It’s really flooded in our area. And in areas where I pass by on my way to work. Not feeling well too. Have a bad cold since Thursday. Febrile yesterday. Bakit ba meron kasing more than 2,000 rhinoviruses!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrr!!!!!!!!!! Im planning to sleep my head off and just pig out at home. Will Text my nani endlessly. Pray for the victims of Frank, the typhoon.

By the way, there’s this one thing that my hon does for me before we go to sleep when we’re together on weekend out of town trips... The first time he did that, I had goosebumps. I never experienced it from anyone else. Nobody ever did that to me. And it was so touching. I don’t usually express my way of communicating with God in front of my love ones. I just pray on my own. When Im with my nani, sometimes I just fall asleep after saying my evening prayers silently while hugging him…This “act” that he would do is use his hand to make the sign of the cross for me….Never did I think that my honey is such a spiritual person. I have always thought of him as mataray, self-centered, opinionated, firm, and someone to be afraid of pero mapagmahal! (hahahaha! totoo nani, kakatakot ka!). So when he did the sign of the cross for me, I was really moved by it. A very simple gesture of my honey but it reflects how goodhearted he is. A spirituality that is very pure and simple. The last time I did the sign of the cross before going to sleep was about 10 or 15 years ago. The simple gesture of my hon made me realize that perhaps, it’s because of his upbringing. I forgot that he grew up and studied in a Catholic school run by nuns and I suppose that my nani is living the life that is patterned after the lifestyle of the religious. My hon is not a saint. ( May santo bang nagyoyosi? Nyahaha…)He had a taste of worldly things during his juvenile years but what became clearer to me is that my honey is a very caring person. He wants to be a good doctor and take care of others’ physical ailments. Because of that act, I concretized the fact that he does not only want to care for me in mere physical or earthly aspects but he also wants to nurture my spiritual life and my possible life hereafter.I love him more because of that.

Ulan or rain would be perceived as a blessing for optimists. It could mean a disaster for pessimists. But for a believer like my honey, I know that everytime it rains (and even if it becomes a typhoon), he will look at it as a challenge that we can surpass at all times coz of the faith that he has. Moreso if he brings with him his PAYONG ( na “kahit sira at butas ay magsisilbing panangga ng ulan = like LOVE, nakanaaamputik-----hahahaha ”) which will serve as our weapon to shield our selves from the trials ( like a STORM or a TYPHOON ) that we will face in this relationship.

Love you my honey. Advance Happy 5th monthsary.