i hate it when you want to do something but you're just too lazy to do it

my 2nd shifting is due this coming week. since saturday i have been waking up at 3am with plans of studying but ends up staring at piles of transcriptions and resorting to going online and downloading mp3's. its such a bummer. i cant seem to concentrate. something that has happened within this week probably has something to do with it. i hate it. its worst than getting in bed at 9pm but actually sleeping 1t 2am. always frustrating.

friday, my medicine class dismissed us early (too bad to those groups who stayed for their precept). i was with paula, laurice and wapi hailing a cab on our way back at the campus to get us our copy of samplex's. wapi seated himself at the driver's seat and was in command of telling the driver where to go and what road to choose. the driver was going straight luneta park when we were supposed to turn right at kalaw, and wapi just freaked out "mama dito kme sa kanan!!!". walang sabi sabi kinabig ni manong pa-kanan...end result...banggaan to the max! hahaha. all of us went into silent mode, as our eyes fixed at the rear view mirror as if talking silently in the gaps of manong driver who continuously blabbing cuss words. we went out the taxi and walked our way to mabini to ride a jeep going to pier. sorry mr. driver, wapi didnt mean to freak you out and cause you your liscense. :)

then saturday, as i was having a good studying mood, my sister requested me to drive my lola back to their house with some of the things we prepared for a garage sale that will be set-up there. it has been long since i have been to our old house, and to see my favorite lolo. we had a good chat, my lolo and i. he told me he missed me...awwww. he's like my own dad, infact i spend more time with him than with my dad. he told me that the more i get chubbier, im kinda getting tito jhun's attributes. which for me is ok since tito jhun is cute (from among my dad's brother) hehe. speaking of tito jhun, i miss him as well. he's the 2nd im close to amongst all my titos and titas. i wish i could spend more time with my lolo. i remember when i was in 2nd year high skul, he would force me to work-out, lift weights and stuff. so every morning, he would make my mom wake me up at 7 to work-out with him. i was a skinny, vertically challenged boy then (well i still am vertically challenged), then my sessions with him stopped when i entered third year and thats the time when i started gaining weight (physiologically: sudden decline in metabolism causes an immediate increase in weight gain).

do you guys know where i cud buy "focus"? im currently in need of it...badly!