off to bed

last night was a night of firsts:

1. it was my first time to go to BED last night
2. first full blown gimick i had with my highskul friends for since i dont know when
3. first time i spoiled one good evening with my mouth
4. first time that i knew my highskul friends have a little hatred towards me
5. first time i felt friends feel indifferent towards me

i apologize for everything that i am, too much drink, too much going on in your life really makes one really stupid. its all my fault im sorry. i hope i could still redeem myself. i am willing and wanting to.

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i hope i pass all my shifting exams... it gets tiring to fail in everything, friends, love, skul, family...