today i just finished watching "the pursuit of happyness" by will smith. it was a real touching movie about perseverance and having to reap the success out of it. its amazing to know that successful people really started from scratch. it gave me a relief from my present struggle. i have always thought of myself as a good-for-nothing-parent-rat. while most of the people my age are earning tons of money and having a swell time with it, im stuck in this timeline where all i do was study. now things are moving fast as quickly as i thought it would be. in a few months, ill be facing the reality that i have to work my way up. its probably the same thing with what im doing right now but the only addition is the paycheck. hopefully.
when me and my husband had our first phone call, during that time that i learned that he is a doctor as well (which he wanted to earnestly not disclose hahaha), he introduced me to another facet of being a physician... a leader and a manager. of course, i have already been acquianted with the idea way back in med school but to actually realized a different setting is all new to me. from all the stories my husband has been telling me it made me want to go corporate. but knowing that you have to travel once every often makes me think otherwise. my husband is in davao right now. its just for one day, but nevertheless i miss him so much. i thought somehow id be able to accept it thoroughly but still its not quite. i guess i need more time to acclimitize with the condition. im a paranoid freak. yes! my husband knows that. thats why i appreciate the fact that he would text me whenever possible so as not to spur moments of my ADHD. i love him for that.
whats really nice with my honey is that he lets me choose whatever path i wud like to take being a doctor. he wants me to actually be a clinician. saying that my personality suits it more. and he told me before that he sees a good clinician in me which all along i thought i was a "balahura" doctor (taken much from my stay at OM). im glad my honey sees the goodness in me. i love him more with that. we would always joke around how he wanted me to go into OB and have all my patients on CS, coz by that time he woundnt have to work for us.
speaking of... one of the things i would really like to do is to serve my honey. he knows that. he knows how i would like to pick him up and drive him to his house and all that. but he wouldnt approve of it thinking it is too tasking to do. the thing is, its one of those things i want to do for my husband in return to the kindness that he has always been imparting me. i remember the great feeling i had when he finally approved of me driving him to the airport one early morning. you know that smile that characters often have in the movies after driving their loved ones in the airport? i had that smile. that kilig factor. sadly in this trip, he didnt allow me. :( bu he promised me next time. yey!!!!
i miss my honey na. come home safe is all im asking... love you honey!!!!
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