Thursday, February 17, 2005


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Sunday, February 13, 2005

KABAE (BABAENG KABAYO)

last night i went out to the wake of my friend's dad. at a 58, he's already gone. sad that life just end...its painful that we can't do anything about it. at 22, my friend has already lost his parents, just in two years, imagine that. i'm thankful i still have my parents. i know i have done stupid things that had hurt them, and i know id continue to do those stupid things that will hurt them, but the truth of the matter is, no matter how stupid i could be, no matter how much i could hurt them, they still remain my parents...i will still and forever love my parents. its a fact that, children really are stupid and when you become parents you'd stop realizing that and be hurt by your children. children are children and parents are parents, they cannot entwine but they could work together i guess. children have to be stupid for parents to realize their superiority, and with that the ultimate job of parents will ensue...to discipline their children. it could never be the other way around (well perhaps, when parents are bedridden, god forbids, then its time that children become parents).


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we were joking around last night with my friend telling what he would do as president of the country. well, here's the list of what he would do as i still remember it:

1. he would be putting me as secretary of DOH
2. instead of cocconut trees and plants along baywalk and edsa, he would put his "rebulto"...and as he say it "magbigay pugay kayong lahat"
3. instead of just plain asphalt, he'd put marky's face embossed in it, so that people would know how pretty he is.
4. He'd make AIDS as nothing as a cold, gonorrhea as something as fever, and TB as something you could be relieved with by taking water.
5. He would be making glutathion, viagra, and all other drugs as accessible as cherry-balls, that you could just buy in your "suking tindahan"
6. He would close down night clubs, and make adonis, gigolo, big papa, and all other GBs legal and he would be issuing permit with that. plus a noontime show for all macho dancers.
7. he would salvaged all women (he termed them "kabae" as in babaeng kabayo) in the country except for preggy's

He said, his projects will be a hit, that people will put up martial law just to keep him in office.

just what if no?


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i ended my driving lesson this morning with a fourth gear. yup, i was dying to use the 4th gear coz i like zoom zoom zoom. and luckily i had the chance to use it at daanghari in cavite. damn! i like it!

Wednesday, February 09, 2005


ganda ng basic photography noh? hihihihi Posted by Hello

Lover, you should have come over...its not too late

Looking out the door I see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners. Parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water. Maybe I'm too young to keep good love from going wrong. But tonight you're on my mind so you never know.

I'm broken down and hungry for your love with no way to feed it. Where are you tonight, you know how much I need it. Too young to hold on and too old to break free and run. Sometimes a man, he gets carried away, when he feels like he should be having his fun. And he's much too blind to see the damage he's done. Cause sometimes a man must awake to find that really he has no one.

So I'll wait for you and I'll burn. Will I ever see your sweet return?. Oh will I ever learn, Oh lover, you should've come over.

'Cause it's not too late

Lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in. Burning in the corner is the only one who dreams he had you with him. My body turns and yearns for a sleep that will never come.

Sometimes a man, he gets carried away, when he feels like he should be having his fun. And he's much too blind to see the damage he's done.

Cause sometimes a man must awake to find that really he has no one

So I'll wait for you and I'll burn.

Will I ever see your sweet return?
Oh will I ever learn?
Oh lover, you should've come over

'Cause it's not too late

'Cause it's not too late

Tuesday, February 08, 2005


i got alerted this morning of some rashes on my forehead...pimple-like erythema...my classmates said it could be due to the shampoo im susing or perhaps the heat of the sun. i wish it goes away. Posted by Hello

Monday, February 07, 2005

About time

Walking down to the water's edge where I have been before. If I don't get my love sometime i'm walking out that door. Some may come and some may go but no-one seems to be the person I've been searching for, the one whose meant for me. Biding my time, trying to find a heart that's lonely. Looking for someone, my love my one and only. Maybe I'll dream, tonight about that one who'll be coming my way. So I'll take this chance and celebrate the day.
And I'm making my way through an open door, I've got some love and so much more, but I'm not ready to make someone mine. Making my way through an open door, I've got some love and so much more, will i find one?, 'cos it's about time.
You try too hard and it feels just like, you're running on thin air. Why does luck happen by supriseIf when you don't really care. The past is gone the flames are out from fires that have burned. New ideals and different thoughts from lessons I have learned.
Biding my time, trying to find a heart that's lonely. Looking for someone, my love my one and only. Maybe I'll dream, tonight about that one who'll be coming my way. So I'll take this chance and celebrate the day
Got the feeling this could take a pretty long while to find that smile.
Put my faith in another piece of good advice
Well I tried that twice waiting for, a little something more to inspire, take me higher.
And ill be making my way through an open door I've got some love and so much more and I might not find one, 'cos it's about time
It's not about time
Its about me...
[from jamie cullum's track from his album twenty something...its my theme song right now...and it helps]

Sunday, February 06, 2005

my bestfriend...his name? yosiboy

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Lord ba't mo ko pinabayaan?

7:00pm:
"jay (there was knocking on my door), kain k b?"
still sleepy i responded, "ano? bakit?"
"sabi mo aalis ka? aalis ka pa ba?""bakit?", then for a second i realized it wasnt sunday...its still saturday only that the last time i checked the sun was still up. again i found myself drowned into sleeping that i forgot i have to attend a friend's bday. i quicky got up, went to the shower and made myself "gwapo".

i came in late coz i had the urge to finish stardace at kapamilya network. why? i have
this crush on one of the contestants, i beleive his name is christian andrada, the one with
the "july-globe-haircut" (correct me if im wrong). anyway, when i arrived, joy, drei, and
jackie are already there munching on tita's deliciously cooked bbq, the equally palatable
spaghetti, and tokwa't baboy (my fav).

while eating tita came to me...
"o ba't late ka?"
"e kse tita kala ko sunday, i forgot saturday lang pala"
"hinde e, may crush ka daw dun sa stardance e"

shit...i was caught! i just smiled.

then after we ate at ice's place, we went to another bday bash just on the otherside of the
village. this time it was ryan's. there i found what im afraid of...2 gay couples. shit
(again). uncontented on tormenting me, they went on to sat next to me. shit (3x). all i
could think of that moment was:

"LORD MAHAL MO PA BA AKO? BAKIT MO KO PINABAYAAN?"

and drei whispered to me:"grabe! binabastos ka o!"

we just laughed...i laughed at myself for being pathetic.

that gave me a reason to drink 4 bottles of san mig light, 1/4 red wine, talk about bulex
(bulbol extension), karu (karugtong ng bulbol), ass hair (i forgot the term) and make "what
-if" scenes of bitterness with drei. tipsy as i was, drei, jackie and i headed for home.
we hurriedly walked from one gate to another, afraid that we might be caught by someone from that party and scream:

"look! poor! walang car!"

of cors nobody shrieked that, but if they do here's our response:
"at least mataba kme...meaning maraming pagkain sa ref! di namin kasalanan kung bkit
madaming pera sina daddy and mommy to buy us foods! malnourish!"

"stunted"

"wasted"

"HA!"

me and joy's bebi...parehas kme kalbo! hehehe

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so this is how i look like as a father...hmmm...pwede!

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the trio!

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wala na ko masabi!

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pretty girls of las pinas

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pictures from every light post from joy's place to ryan's, there were 4 posts total

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lab experiment namin on SMA (spontaneous motor activity) where we made the mice swim until they die. cute no?

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research namin on anti-pyretics...we induced the wabbits with fever...most of them died...:)

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Friday, February 04, 2005

i deserve someone better?

my friend ara responded quickly to this post via text...she told me i deserved someone better. its sad that that line is always been used to help me get better...when in fact it depresses me that i don't even know what a better person is for me...im not even aware that someone even exist...im even afraid i wouldnt find one.

maybe im that kind of person who keeps on looking, finding, waiting...and be content on getting hurt in the end.

love is wasted on me...

Just a Fallback

i wanted to find a deeper reason for my break-up, and looking for it i got tired until two sundays ago, i recieved a text from my ex's supposed ex. well the gist of the things i found out was the truth that, even during the time and before the time me and my ex were hitting the love train, there was him and my ex already riding the waves of conscious amygdala of emotions and rage since fights between them are as common as blue berries on a cheesecake.
and i quote my ex's bf:
"naging kme nov 1, i moved into there place nove 6. i dont blame him kung nagsinungaling sya kse it wasnt your(me) fault in the first place. partly i am to be blamed kse we came to apoint na away kme ng away and lagi ko sya hinahamon ng break up so parang just in case ma2loy may fallback sya. dats wat he told me when i asked him why he fooled around"
so there...all those times, all those efforts (even in the littlest measurement of time ihave given) have all gone into waste.
that explains the reason why he doesnt care if i collapse of hypoglycemia from studying, or why he doesnt want to pick me up after school unmindful of the fact that he has lots of time to do so, or why he gave me a bag of cornnick (sweetcorn from ilocos) as a gift for our 1st monthsary in return for the ring i gave him.
its all gone now...its all so clear to me now. the very first time i actually put an effort on something bumped me in the head so hard and so painful that it caused hemorrhage between my skul and dura mater.
i logged in to friendster today, and i saw my ex's profile as those who's birthday have yetto pass soon...i opened it, and saw a testimonial of his bf and a picture of the two of them in what seemed to be a very happy moment.
i shrugged...i squirmed...i wanted to cry of anger or hatred but its useless. something inthe past cannot undue the present. all i could do is just to stare blankly on my pc, thinkwhat shitty stuff i could write on my blog, and feel the bitterness drowning me from theinside.
there's nothing i could do. there's simply nothing there for me. i don't know how to fight
i guess i have to be contented with smoking my lungs out...dying is such a sweet sorrow. living is but a painful job. but im happy...i really am. nobody knows this but there is a nineth beatitude...
"don't take pitty on the bitter-broken-hearted for they are just as loved"
my ex and his bf trying to tell me i got fooled. don't they have a nice smile? ang saya saya! sobra! kakainggit! haay! FUCK YOU! Posted by Hello

Thursday, February 03, 2005

billy and the crawfords Posted by Hello
bright lights Posted by Hello
mga candidates...2 of our rep won as 2nd runner-up (tiffany) and best in evening gown (meng). congrats Posted by Hello
mr and ms medicine with me and nina as hosts Posted by Hello

SOON

on my next post ill be putting up pictures when i hosted mr and ms medicine (and yup host na ko, last year anchor lang ako), and insights/revelations on my break up and whatnots. pls do keep reading and checking my blog from time to time...skul's been tough right now...it always have been. mwah!
my love, my life after winning the AUSopen last sunday! Posted by Hello
myk, miri, margaux and me at the walls of intramuros Posted by Hello

josef, myk and me at gerry's...my new found friends

so this is what i look like as a yuppy

at apmc convention for doctors