glenda, one of my co-intern, was humming makulay ang buhay sa sinabawang gulay... bu instead she put it... makulay ang buhay sa kabilang buhay. i burst out laughing. until now it sticks in my head. damn jingle! haha!
im tired... really really tired
im tired of life. im tired of my internship, im tired of worrying about stuffs like myself. im afraid im not happy as i thought i would be. they say in work, one of the reasons why people quit their job is when they finally realized that theyre not happy anymore. as for me, being in a benign hospital, i thought i could have time for everything. well yes, i do have time, but sometimes those plenty of time i cant manage. i have lots of it, but i cant spend it. often i think i should have gone back to OM where everything is fast paced, where i wouldnt mind time and day, and dates. where i wouldnt feel lonely doing my duty. im tired feeling lonely. at the end of the day i would dream i was working in an office, walking the streets of makati, earning quite a sum of money for something i wouldnt consider as work. maybe just maybe, had i been working and earning now, i would have been more loved. proximity wise i would have more time to spend with you. it kills me when i think of all these things,
im not stable... im full of anxiety and i need to be comforted...
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