i don't know if someone, somewhere (bound to take the boards) is feeling the same way that i do. i'm not certain if its a physiologic response to stress or a matter of psychiatric evaluation that feeling depressed about the coming board exam sometimes holds me back from study.
in less than two weeks ill be embarking on an exam that could change my life forever. i have already finished my review last saturday and now on my last two weeks to collect all that i have reviewed through fast reading. frustrating most of the times coz whenver i re read my materials i seem to not know them anymore. i cant seem to be content with what i know, and anxious with what i dont know.
what will come of me if i fail? thinking the fact that i have turned down many offers to go out during my review, tons of movies i missed, TV shows i chose to forget seeing, and times i wish i was with my husband... passing is my only option. this board exam is both an emotional and physical whirlwind for me.
im just holding on to the idea that after this, whether i pass or fail, ill have the best vacation ever. I pray to God that i pass to make it more extra special.
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