she's arriving

i was bound to leave the hospital early this morning to pick my mom at the airport, but she called me last night at 12md to inform me that her airplane wont be leaving until 4am, and that she would be arriving at 6pm today. i miss my mom. sometimes i wish i could open up to her. i wish i could tell her what has been happening to me lately. all the trouble ive been through, and the sadness that still lingers. i envision her hugging me and telling me it would be alright son. but i can't. it would pain her so much to see her son in loneliness. and the reasons would even hurt her more. i just have to keep it. these past few days she calls me and asks me what i like. i told her of course. she said she bought me a pair of chucks, a new style i saw over the internet and a crocs. my dad bought me a milano shoes and my fav perfume... armani code black. so aside from me missing my mom, im excited coz ill be getting suffs. hehehe. my sister will be leaving this month for the US, and i better get ready my list of pasalubong. hahaha.
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ive downloaded a couple ot programs that has been keeping me busy learning these past few days. Photodex Proshow Producer and adobe photoshop CS3. i have a project before this year ends, so i better start, coz by january ill be starting my own reveiw for the boards.

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time fly so fast, but loneliness always put a halt into everything.
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im currently listening to silent sanctuary's version of APO's tuyo na ang damdamin... a song that reminds me how sad i am and how reality tells me i can never go back coz his heart is dry. sad.


Silent Sanctuary - Tuyo Na'ng Damdamin lyrics

Minsan kahit na pilitin mong uminit ang damdamin
Di siya susunod, at di maglalambing
Minsan di mo na mapigil mapansin
Na talagang wala nang naiiwan na pagmamahal

[Refrain]
At kahit na anong gawin
Di mo na mapilit at madaya
Aminin sa sarili mo
Na wala ka nang mabubuga

Parang 'sang kandila na nagdadala
Ng ilaw at liwanag
Nauubos rin sa magdamag

(Instrumental)
Minsan di mo na mapigil mapansin
Na talagang wala nang naiiwan na pagmamahal

(Repeat Refrain)
Di na madaig o mabalik ang dating matamis na kahapon
Pilitin ma'y tuyo na'ng damdamin

Tuyo na'ng damdamin (repeat 4x)ha......