i don't why but its been months and yet i still feel empty. Im laughing but im crying on the inside. as i was lying at our intern's quarters, i suddenly felt all the memories coming back. the happy days i have spent, those nights that eventhough i havent had any sleep made me awake just to be with someone. i don't know how i could move on...honestly. im trying very hard. you just dont know why. i miss those times i would get a text asking how i am, have i eaten, if im tired, if i have studied. you know that feeling that you're moving around in the world but you dont feel you mean anything... that you're just "existing"... that's how i am right now. so many questions i can't answer. i dont know how to help myself....___________________________________
** i was listening to soapdish's song "Pwede ba"... i cried. i remember i used to watch them at 70s bistro. then my friend andrea called me up. parang nsa tiyempo na tumawag sya. she cheered me up. she told me bat di ko sya itext kung nalulungkot ako, and i just told her i dont know. sigh.... ang gulo... ang gulo ng icip ko.
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