batch consciousness : tsismis

early lunch today, i attended the christening of the cute son of our barkada. it was a sort of mini reunion for our barkada, from tito tim to karen, those people we hardly get to have time to meet. the reception was at kamayan's buffet. the food was delicious as i lavishingly ate the inihaw na liempo and greedingly munched on the lechon skin. at 2:30 i got my car from the valet and hurried home to take a shower (coz i attended the party with my from duty attire), then went directly at MOA to get my phone fixed.

i was to pick the phone after an hour at Nokia's service center, i decided to spend that hour at dream coffee and watch people go by as i devour smoke from my cigarrette. as boredom engulfs me, i come to think of a lot of things. Maybe our batch HAS its consciousness. i mean, we thrive from tsismis like sino nabuntis ni ganto, or sino nakipaghiwalay, or sino lumipat ng ibang hospital or sino nagpalaglag.. everytime we meet up its either we relive the memories of the past or we dwell on the present through tsismis. in fact one tsismis is yet to be true coz more investigations from ara and pam are on its way. hehehe.

waiting has always been my expertise. it doesnt mean i have patience, but its more of like curiosity of whats gonna happen next. so as i sat and watch people go by i can't help but feel alone. well, literary i was then, but seriously, it bothers me that im just still. that i feel trapped in my own box, haunted by my own fear. its a feeling like you want to say something but someone says to wait. wait for that time that maybe hope has things in store for me. stupid as it might sound but i like to get to hope at things that to some people are hopeless. in my life, i have learned the value of hope. that changes are what people are good of, and that change will determine how we accept things that come along our way. its a measure of our decisive strength and our willingness to be happy in the end.

does hoping for a perfect relationship farfetch? how long should you wait for love to actually take the good side of change? does love have to really change afterall?

im so missing you