Saturday, March 31, 2007
Thursday, March 29, 2007
diretso, kanan, kaliwa... My NBI experience
thats what the lady vendor instructed me as i made my way into finding the new NBI clearance center. I, little innocent of downtown manila, followed the lady's advice. I turned straight, then right and then left and i found myself in the middle of the market and confused coz i cant figure out how the NBI be at the middle of a market selling porns and fake cellphone jackets. i suddenly remember my sister saying not to forget to look up for signs. i didnt knew what she meant by it this morning as i hurried myself outside our doors. nevertheless i looked up... and right in front of me was a big sign saying NBI CLEARANCE CENTER as if mocking how stupid i am.
anyway, i entered the facility which was hidden in a maze of stores and skimpy passages that led me in a window where i was told to pay 20 pesos. i didnt know what that was for and i never asked (until now im dumbed by that 20 pesos). so there i was in line step one where i was given a form to fill up. as i finally finished (thanks to a good samaritan who explained to me what to write) i lined up for step 2 which was payment. AGAIN? yep... 115, not bad though. i remember i payed 1700 for my driver's liscence (well it was fixed, by what do u know!!! a fixer). after paying, i went to step 3 which was data search. i gave my form and they looked it up and told me to go to step 4. Step 4 was fun, you get to have a candid photo for free! in a second or even less, your pic is taken. it was as quick as a flicker of my lashes. no wonder no one ever gets to have a nice pic on their national ids or papers, its either you look like a convict (me, in my driver's liscence) or ultimately black as the print was blackened out. whew! step 5 was interesting too... you get to play with inks, as in all your fingers will be covered in one. funny coz manong inker noticed my sweaty hands and requested me to dry it first bka daw di tumalab ung ink. hehehe. he made a quick conversation asking what causes sweaty hands. syempre ako di ko alam ung sagot i just mumbled some medical terms like "its caused by a defect in the pituitary gland producing excessive hormones that counter balances the negative feedback effects from the pores etc" and that was in straight english. wala sya nasabi but he said... "alam ko gamot dyan... patahi mo lahat ng pores mo" hahaha. si manong magaling magpatawa parang boyfriend ko. hahaha. step 6 was quick... just a simple tag on my reciept telling me to be back april 3.
wow! i cant beleive i actually remembered all the 6 steps in NBI clearance. i should be commended! hehehe
i reserved a slot na rin pala at MCM for internship... i hope i could get through. :)
anyway, i entered the facility which was hidden in a maze of stores and skimpy passages that led me in a window where i was told to pay 20 pesos. i didnt know what that was for and i never asked (until now im dumbed by that 20 pesos). so there i was in line step one where i was given a form to fill up. as i finally finished (thanks to a good samaritan who explained to me what to write) i lined up for step 2 which was payment. AGAIN? yep... 115, not bad though. i remember i payed 1700 for my driver's liscence (well it was fixed, by what do u know!!! a fixer). after paying, i went to step 3 which was data search. i gave my form and they looked it up and told me to go to step 4. Step 4 was fun, you get to have a candid photo for free! in a second or even less, your pic is taken. it was as quick as a flicker of my lashes. no wonder no one ever gets to have a nice pic on their national ids or papers, its either you look like a convict (me, in my driver's liscence) or ultimately black as the print was blackened out. whew! step 5 was interesting too... you get to play with inks, as in all your fingers will be covered in one. funny coz manong inker noticed my sweaty hands and requested me to dry it first bka daw di tumalab ung ink. hehehe. he made a quick conversation asking what causes sweaty hands. syempre ako di ko alam ung sagot i just mumbled some medical terms like "its caused by a defect in the pituitary gland producing excessive hormones that counter balances the negative feedback effects from the pores etc" and that was in straight english. wala sya nasabi but he said... "alam ko gamot dyan... patahi mo lahat ng pores mo" hahaha. si manong magaling magpatawa parang boyfriend ko. hahaha. step 6 was quick... just a simple tag on my reciept telling me to be back april 3.
wow! i cant beleive i actually remembered all the 6 steps in NBI clearance. i should be commended! hehehe
i reserved a slot na rin pala at MCM for internship... i hope i could get through. :)
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
The Hooding Ceremony
the staged hostage crisis in manila didnt stopped us from celebrating an ancient tradition of honoring masters in the medical field... i was one of those masters (at least for that moment i felt like one). walking through the red carpet, wearing a heavy toga and wierd beret made me realized that what i studied or underwent in medicine is actually no joke. i felt the prestige and honor as people gaze on us in great awe as we march across the auditorium. it felt good to actually be respected. 







the ceremony didnt start on time, actually it was way late than expected. damn that hostage thing! i even thought i was late coz we got caught in the middle of the traffic but good thing i wasnt the one driving coz God knows i'd be cursing each and every driver that cuts through my lane. getting in the venue was such an erratic splurge of momentus excitement as my collegues cheer with every person that comes in line. it was glorious, much more than i expected. the cue in line gave us numerous photo opportunities which we took advantage as we took pictures of us with each department head. fantastic!!! another one for friendster!


i can't wait for saturday to come where are diploma would be handed down to us. another day of sweating behind our toga. hehehe.



Tuesday, March 27, 2007
unknown
im so like miserable right now... i was watching grey's anatomy... thought it could appease my loneliness, now im double lonely. NOt only do i miss my husband but i miss the hospital...
i drank the san mig light that was a left over last feb when me and my husband came home for drinking and half way through the bottle i realized it tastes stale. i dont know if beer ever becomes stale.
im stale....
i drank the san mig light that was a left over last feb when me and my husband came home for drinking and half way through the bottle i realized it tastes stale. i dont know if beer ever becomes stale.
im stale....
Monday, March 26, 2007
what to do in a lazy night but to blog my heart out
i dont know why but i feel lonely tonight... much because of the fact that my love's last text was around 3pm, the other reason still i dont know. tuloy i had the urge to stay online and re-read for the nth time my blog from the 1st entry upto the present. as much as i enjoy reminiscing, i hate the feeling that you cant do anything to combat your loneliness. and whats even bothering is that whenever im lonely i think of so many things, so many bad things, so many negative vibes.
i have so much insecurities in me and i dont know how to handle them or i dont know if im handling them well. many think that i dont even have one coz of how i project to them. at the hospital, they thought im good coz i dont falter, and others think im heartless coz i dont squirm. but the truth is, behind my heart cries a doctor who sometimes dont know what to do, some doctor who knows he can do something but just cant.
with love, many people are witness to my ups and downs. im very transparent with my friends when im in love or when im hurt. but most of the times, i keep everything to myself. i dont tell them all my insecurities nor how much i am hurt until that time comes when i just couldnt handle it. i dont know if im doing the right thing, if im giving it out all too much, or am i just being too overwhelmed by something long have i not felt but wanted and now i have. i cannot converge the fact that while i seem to be pretty much in control of everything, deep inside me cries attention. it screams with such longing everytime im missed out. sometimes i want to bang my head on the wall coz its only him thats in my mind, only him i think about. but then again, i stop. coz him in my mind gives me a rush of serotonin and it makes me happy. i care for him so much... even much more then i care for myself. before i care for myself alone but now i care for myself for him. if this isnt a rightful way of loving i dont know what is.
i am not perfect and maybe i will not ever, but looking through my imperfections and loving it would make me greater than perfect.
and now my phone alarmed for what i expected a text msg... turned out to be a balance inquiry i sent out hours ago but came in late... im so missing my love....
i have so much insecurities in me and i dont know how to handle them or i dont know if im handling them well. many think that i dont even have one coz of how i project to them. at the hospital, they thought im good coz i dont falter, and others think im heartless coz i dont squirm. but the truth is, behind my heart cries a doctor who sometimes dont know what to do, some doctor who knows he can do something but just cant.
with love, many people are witness to my ups and downs. im very transparent with my friends when im in love or when im hurt. but most of the times, i keep everything to myself. i dont tell them all my insecurities nor how much i am hurt until that time comes when i just couldnt handle it. i dont know if im doing the right thing, if im giving it out all too much, or am i just being too overwhelmed by something long have i not felt but wanted and now i have. i cannot converge the fact that while i seem to be pretty much in control of everything, deep inside me cries attention. it screams with such longing everytime im missed out. sometimes i want to bang my head on the wall coz its only him thats in my mind, only him i think about. but then again, i stop. coz him in my mind gives me a rush of serotonin and it makes me happy. i care for him so much... even much more then i care for myself. before i care for myself alone but now i care for myself for him. if this isnt a rightful way of loving i dont know what is.
i am not perfect and maybe i will not ever, but looking through my imperfections and loving it would make me greater than perfect.
and now my phone alarmed for what i expected a text msg... turned out to be a balance inquiry i sent out hours ago but came in late... im so missing my love....
Incident Report
i was rummaging through my files here at my notebuk when i saw this document i wrote last year about an incident report. I was supposed to file this to the clinical director and to the hospital director but decided to let it pass. reading it brought back memories.... :)
________________________________________________________________
To: Dr. Christia Padolina
Hospital Director
Ospital ng Maynila Medical Center
Thru: Dr. Isaias Cando
Chief of Clinics
Ospital ng Maynila Medical Center
Dear Madam:
I, Enrique C. Papa Jr., a Medical Clerk of the Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila would like to report an incidence that happened last September 19, 2006 at the Bleeding Room of the Ospital ng Maynila Medical Center. This is with regards the improper decorum shown to me by the Clinical Instructor of the Centro Escolar University- College of Dentistry.
Around Seven-thirty in the morning, I already took my post at the Bleeding Room, together with my Post Graduate Intern and Co-Medical Clerk. There were no Donors yet, however, there were Dentistry Students outside the Bleeding Room and asked me if they could go inside the room. I went ahead inside the room and prepared the things needed for the day’s duty. While waiting for the Donors, the Dentistry students went inside the room on my permission, and they asked if they could perform blood typing among themselves. Thinking it was only one who would have his blood typed, I allowed them to do so. While waiting for the Donors, I humbly started a conversation with them, asking from what school they were from and what course. They generously responded that they were Dentistry Students from CEU. In the course of the conversation, I asked them what they would be doing inside the Bleeding Room. According to one of them, they were asked to observe. Out of curiosity, I asked them what is the implication of their observation here in the Bleeding Room on their study. One of the students named Paul, replied: “Wala.” Then I jokingly said: “Kung ako, matutulog na lang ako.” We all then burst into laughter and a few of them commented if I could sign their grading sheet. I told them: “Hindi naman ako pwede. Kung pwede lang, gagawin ko. Baka iba mag-grade sa inyo.“ The conversation continued with others asking questions about the criteria on approving and deferring Blood Donors. As someone in charge of the Bleeding Room, I answered them to the best of my knowledge on Blood Banking. Two of the Dentistry Students asked me if they could donate blood. I initially screened them, and in the process, I approved the two students. Everything was going on quite well, until a few Donors came in and I immediately attended to them. I left the Dentistry students by themselves and went on to carry out my duty.
Then suddenly, three people dressed in white coat came barging in the Bleeding Room, and asked with a high-pitched angry tone saying: “Sino yung nambastos dito? Sino, sino ang nambastos?” I immediately approached them and asked who it was they were pertaining to. She did not answer my question, instead she called upon one her student named Paul and that student pointed at me. That was the time that these three people surrounded me. One was in front of me, the two other stayed on my left side. The one in front of me raised her voice asking me: “ Bakit mo sila tinanong ng ganon?...Anong karapatan mo para tanungin sila ng ganun?” Then I replied asking: “Anu po bay un?” The person in front of me reiterated that: “Tinanong mo daw sila kung bakit sila nandito… Wala kang karapatang tanungin sila.. di ka ba nagbasa ng guidelines before you entered this hospital. Anu pa yung sinasabi mo na matulog na lang sila, tama ba yun? Porque ba doctor ka at sila estudyante, minamaliit mo na lang sila?.. Didn’t you know that Dentistry is now being combined with Medicine?.. Nagbabayad sila dito kaya wala kang karapatan..” I tried defending by myself by saying: “ I did not belittle them, it was an honest question I asked, with no intention whatsoever of belittling them.. I was trying to make a conversation if they have been offended by it, they could have approached me in the first place, but they didn’t… They were joking to me and I too with them… Yes I read the guidelines and I’m aware of it. .. My Post Graduate Intern defended me by explaining that he was there and it was not intentional and that they were having a conversation. The person in front of me then said: “Ganun ka ba makipagkilala sa tao?” And I answered yes. The two other people on my left side were babbling words on me which I cannot remember anymore. Then I told them: “Alright, whatever it is that I said, it was unintentional, I did not in any way belittle or tried to belittle your students. I’m apologizing for my comment.” Then the person in front of me said: “Wag kang magsori sa kin, magsori ka sa kanila!” I turned to the students and in shame and lost of self-esteem, I was obliged to apologize. Then the person in front of me said: “Sa susunod, wag mo ng gagawin yan mambastos!” And they left the room just like that.
After the three people went out of the room, I then asked the Dentistry Students who told their Clinical Instructor about it. One of them named Paul admitted that he was the one, along with another student, who told their Clinical Instructor. I asked him on how I said it according to his own understanding. He said: “Hindi ako nagsumbong, nagtanong yung CI namin bakit nasa labas ako, and I told her everything.. Kasi yung manner ng pagtanong mo kanina, is mahina yung boses mo.” Then I replied: ”So anung mali kung mahina boses ko.. eh umagang-umaga yun... inaantok pa ko...di ba dapat mas maoffend ka kung tinaasan kita ng boses o tinarayan kita, which is hindi naman. If you have something against me or you have been offended by my words you could have told me right then and there“ From that moment, the students silenced themselves. There was nothing more I could do, I was embarrassed in front of many people, two patients, my intern and my co-clerk. The student named Paul then said in his most bragging tone: “Well sorry kung ganun yung pagkakaintindi namin sa sinabi mo, pero iba ang dating sakin”. It was an apology that was not even thought of, I kept my composure and respected them by not raising a single voice. One of them was nice enough to try talking to me and I answered back but I kept my distance, afraid that I might again be misconstrued. After that more students came in and I continued with my duty, when suddenly I saw them crowding the Blood Typing area and performing without my consent as if nothing happened. They didn’t hear anything from me though.
In line with the said incident, I would like to request from your good office to take appropriate actions. As a medical clerk in the process of training, I should have the desire to know every part of the system of our Institution. I always see to it that I give proper respect to all the people inside the hospital, whether be patients or our partners in the health service sector. I just felt so harassed, powerless, disrespected and mocked inside the Bleeding Room. I temporarily lost my self-esteem in the rash judgment and harsh remarks of the three people who are not my seniors in this hospital. I have not in any way harassed their interns for me to be warranted such harassment. From the 6 months that I have stayed in this institution, never have I mistreated people much more my fellow students. Clinical instructors in the wards, hemo-heart station and in the ER would even entrust me by imparting knowledge to their students who are interested to learn. If I belittled those students, I never should have not let them go inside the bleeding room or use the materials for blood typing. If I looked down on them, I never should’ve imparted my knowledge on how to approve or disapprove donors. I felt that my words were not put into the right context and was given malice by two students who did not know respect. I do not wish to malign those dentistry interns, there are a few of them who are eager enough to learn and somehow I felt at ease with them. My co-clerk was even told by one of the dentistry intern saying to him: “bakit kase maliit na bagay kailangan pang palakihin”. This only proves that what I said was nothing sort of an issue and should have not been given such treatment. It’s not a matter whether they are paying this institution for affiliation like what their CI said, but it is a matter of dignity, which they have stripped me off by by-passing my right to defend myself and be given the proper forum to discuss such an issue. My PGI wanted to stop me from apologizing, but I apologized nevertheless to them but I was not given any credit for it, not even the students who took my words and twisted it and juiced it for all its worth. I do not know what kind of intention those two dentistry interns have, but clearly what their Clinical Instructor and two other people from the dentistry department did was completely “power-tripping” and overt verbal harassment. If I let this pass, how many more Medical Clerks will have to suffer from this gross misconduct of some people in power who are supposed to show the meaning of well-thought actions and respect for other people.
Thank You very much! I really hope for your kind consideration regarding my appeal.
Godspeed!
Respectfully and Sincerely Yours,
Enrique C. Papa Jr.
Medical Clerk
Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila
________________________________________________________________
To: Dr. Christia Padolina
Hospital Director
Ospital ng Maynila Medical Center
Thru: Dr. Isaias Cando
Chief of Clinics
Ospital ng Maynila Medical Center
Dear Madam:
I, Enrique C. Papa Jr., a Medical Clerk of the Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila would like to report an incidence that happened last September 19, 2006 at the Bleeding Room of the Ospital ng Maynila Medical Center. This is with regards the improper decorum shown to me by the Clinical Instructor of the Centro Escolar University- College of Dentistry.
Around Seven-thirty in the morning, I already took my post at the Bleeding Room, together with my Post Graduate Intern and Co-Medical Clerk. There were no Donors yet, however, there were Dentistry Students outside the Bleeding Room and asked me if they could go inside the room. I went ahead inside the room and prepared the things needed for the day’s duty. While waiting for the Donors, the Dentistry students went inside the room on my permission, and they asked if they could perform blood typing among themselves. Thinking it was only one who would have his blood typed, I allowed them to do so. While waiting for the Donors, I humbly started a conversation with them, asking from what school they were from and what course. They generously responded that they were Dentistry Students from CEU. In the course of the conversation, I asked them what they would be doing inside the Bleeding Room. According to one of them, they were asked to observe. Out of curiosity, I asked them what is the implication of their observation here in the Bleeding Room on their study. One of the students named Paul, replied: “Wala.” Then I jokingly said: “Kung ako, matutulog na lang ako.” We all then burst into laughter and a few of them commented if I could sign their grading sheet. I told them: “Hindi naman ako pwede. Kung pwede lang, gagawin ko. Baka iba mag-grade sa inyo.“ The conversation continued with others asking questions about the criteria on approving and deferring Blood Donors. As someone in charge of the Bleeding Room, I answered them to the best of my knowledge on Blood Banking. Two of the Dentistry Students asked me if they could donate blood. I initially screened them, and in the process, I approved the two students. Everything was going on quite well, until a few Donors came in and I immediately attended to them. I left the Dentistry students by themselves and went on to carry out my duty.
Then suddenly, three people dressed in white coat came barging in the Bleeding Room, and asked with a high-pitched angry tone saying: “Sino yung nambastos dito? Sino, sino ang nambastos?” I immediately approached them and asked who it was they were pertaining to. She did not answer my question, instead she called upon one her student named Paul and that student pointed at me. That was the time that these three people surrounded me. One was in front of me, the two other stayed on my left side. The one in front of me raised her voice asking me: “ Bakit mo sila tinanong ng ganon?...Anong karapatan mo para tanungin sila ng ganun?” Then I replied asking: “Anu po bay un?” The person in front of me reiterated that: “Tinanong mo daw sila kung bakit sila nandito… Wala kang karapatang tanungin sila.. di ka ba nagbasa ng guidelines before you entered this hospital. Anu pa yung sinasabi mo na matulog na lang sila, tama ba yun? Porque ba doctor ka at sila estudyante, minamaliit mo na lang sila?.. Didn’t you know that Dentistry is now being combined with Medicine?.. Nagbabayad sila dito kaya wala kang karapatan..” I tried defending by myself by saying: “ I did not belittle them, it was an honest question I asked, with no intention whatsoever of belittling them.. I was trying to make a conversation if they have been offended by it, they could have approached me in the first place, but they didn’t… They were joking to me and I too with them… Yes I read the guidelines and I’m aware of it. .. My Post Graduate Intern defended me by explaining that he was there and it was not intentional and that they were having a conversation. The person in front of me then said: “Ganun ka ba makipagkilala sa tao?” And I answered yes. The two other people on my left side were babbling words on me which I cannot remember anymore. Then I told them: “Alright, whatever it is that I said, it was unintentional, I did not in any way belittle or tried to belittle your students. I’m apologizing for my comment.” Then the person in front of me said: “Wag kang magsori sa kin, magsori ka sa kanila!” I turned to the students and in shame and lost of self-esteem, I was obliged to apologize. Then the person in front of me said: “Sa susunod, wag mo ng gagawin yan mambastos!” And they left the room just like that.
After the three people went out of the room, I then asked the Dentistry Students who told their Clinical Instructor about it. One of them named Paul admitted that he was the one, along with another student, who told their Clinical Instructor. I asked him on how I said it according to his own understanding. He said: “Hindi ako nagsumbong, nagtanong yung CI namin bakit nasa labas ako, and I told her everything.. Kasi yung manner ng pagtanong mo kanina, is mahina yung boses mo.” Then I replied: ”So anung mali kung mahina boses ko.. eh umagang-umaga yun... inaantok pa ko...di ba dapat mas maoffend ka kung tinaasan kita ng boses o tinarayan kita, which is hindi naman. If you have something against me or you have been offended by my words you could have told me right then and there“ From that moment, the students silenced themselves. There was nothing more I could do, I was embarrassed in front of many people, two patients, my intern and my co-clerk. The student named Paul then said in his most bragging tone: “Well sorry kung ganun yung pagkakaintindi namin sa sinabi mo, pero iba ang dating sakin”. It was an apology that was not even thought of, I kept my composure and respected them by not raising a single voice. One of them was nice enough to try talking to me and I answered back but I kept my distance, afraid that I might again be misconstrued. After that more students came in and I continued with my duty, when suddenly I saw them crowding the Blood Typing area and performing without my consent as if nothing happened. They didn’t hear anything from me though.
In line with the said incident, I would like to request from your good office to take appropriate actions. As a medical clerk in the process of training, I should have the desire to know every part of the system of our Institution. I always see to it that I give proper respect to all the people inside the hospital, whether be patients or our partners in the health service sector. I just felt so harassed, powerless, disrespected and mocked inside the Bleeding Room. I temporarily lost my self-esteem in the rash judgment and harsh remarks of the three people who are not my seniors in this hospital. I have not in any way harassed their interns for me to be warranted such harassment. From the 6 months that I have stayed in this institution, never have I mistreated people much more my fellow students. Clinical instructors in the wards, hemo-heart station and in the ER would even entrust me by imparting knowledge to their students who are interested to learn. If I belittled those students, I never should have not let them go inside the bleeding room or use the materials for blood typing. If I looked down on them, I never should’ve imparted my knowledge on how to approve or disapprove donors. I felt that my words were not put into the right context and was given malice by two students who did not know respect. I do not wish to malign those dentistry interns, there are a few of them who are eager enough to learn and somehow I felt at ease with them. My co-clerk was even told by one of the dentistry intern saying to him: “bakit kase maliit na bagay kailangan pang palakihin”. This only proves that what I said was nothing sort of an issue and should have not been given such treatment. It’s not a matter whether they are paying this institution for affiliation like what their CI said, but it is a matter of dignity, which they have stripped me off by by-passing my right to defend myself and be given the proper forum to discuss such an issue. My PGI wanted to stop me from apologizing, but I apologized nevertheless to them but I was not given any credit for it, not even the students who took my words and twisted it and juiced it for all its worth. I do not know what kind of intention those two dentistry interns have, but clearly what their Clinical Instructor and two other people from the dentistry department did was completely “power-tripping” and overt verbal harassment. If I let this pass, how many more Medical Clerks will have to suffer from this gross misconduct of some people in power who are supposed to show the meaning of well-thought actions and respect for other people.
Thank You very much! I really hope for your kind consideration regarding my appeal.
Godspeed!
Respectfully and Sincerely Yours,
Enrique C. Papa Jr.
Medical Clerk
Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
grad party
yesterday we held our graduation party at the hospital's avr. it was an intimate occasion. black and pink was the theme and i came to the party wearing brown hehe. why black and pink? according to wapi coz were bad and hot. hmmm? i am bad, but im not hot. hehe. anyway, the party went out quite well though as usual it started late. the food was quite ok, though it wasnt enough and the chocolate fountain was swarmed. we gave out awards to our residents and different departments, from the most loved resident to the most loved department.
the highlight of the event was actually the AVP that i was asked to do for the batch. just too bad i cant upload it coz its huge. over 200 moving pictures on yano's iskolar ng bayan and ehead's para sa masa tune. i was glad they liked it. i was even afraid that i didnt do much on the AVP coz i only made it 4 hours prior to the party. its a great feeling when my batchmates all clapped at the begginning of the video when they heard the graduation march. many said they were touched by my work, some even got teary eyed. and i was glad they had that feeling coz thats basically wat i wanted to bring about. for them to remember all the fun memories we had during our four year med school.
now the problem is how am i be able to give everyone a copy of the avp since most of them were asking a copy after the video was shown. geesh!
the highlight of the event was actually the AVP that i was asked to do for the batch. just too bad i cant upload it coz its huge. over 200 moving pictures on yano's iskolar ng bayan and ehead's para sa masa tune. i was glad they liked it. i was even afraid that i didnt do much on the AVP coz i only made it 4 hours prior to the party. its a great feeling when my batchmates all clapped at the begginning of the video when they heard the graduation march. many said they were touched by my work, some even got teary eyed. and i was glad they had that feeling coz thats basically wat i wanted to bring about. for them to remember all the fun memories we had during our four year med school.
now the problem is how am i be able to give everyone a copy of the avp since most of them were asking a copy after the video was shown. geesh!
Monday, March 19, 2007
Saturday, March 17, 2007
soon its over

1. patience. interacting with people has always been so easy for me, but its different in the hospital. most of the times my patience was challenged with stress. 36 hours of duty would always take its toll on how i mingle with people. i learned its not easy to hold your smile after all those hours, but nevertheless i have to.
2. friendship. when i was starting, i was oblivious of the people around me. but as i come along, met wonderful people. people i knew and felt i belong. i have become friends with patients, nurses, nursing aids, student doctors, doctors, and even collegues whom my only relationship during accad days were just mere acquaintances became one of my trusted friends. having been with people for a year, everyday, 7 days a week, no holidays, no weekends off, would make all of you become close. its a great feeling whenever people greet you early in the morning and even as you go home and pass by them. and moments that even outside the hospital, patients would turn to you and say "musta na doc?" "salamant doc ha". those things i really treasured.
3. fun. its definitely wrong to say doctors know no fun. we do. we make time. and even inside the hospital, we make fun of ourselves not to mention numerous bloopers till we die will become a laughing stock whenver remembered.
4 home. staying in the hospital would definitely teach you how to miss home. the comforts of a pillow, and the wonders of TV. plus the family riot. :)
5. love. never knew id ever find one in the middle of my not so eventful life as a medical clerk. before i was actually certain that wouldnt find one. before i used to get envious of my collegues having been visited by their bfs/gfs in the hospital. i experienced that and it was more than i expected to be. it felt so nice. before whenver i go home, i would always pray its morning so that i could go to work again and take me out of my misery of being alone. i was eager to go to work, coz work was all i got and it was all that ws keeping me. but then one person made me realize that there is more to life than the hospital. that the world still revolves around and people are busy doing their own little ways outside the four cornered box i am in. and i am happy i learned that. previledged i have him. thankful he loves me.
6. sympathize not emphatize. its one lesson that still is hard for me. people might think i dont have any amor to patients. that id rather see them dead than ruin my whole duty with no sleep. deep inside of me, i feel for them. i remember this one one patient that made me realize that i was still human capable of feelings. his name is alexander dela cruz, he died of an unknown cause. i saw him from day 0 till his last breath. he was the reason i cried, and i prayed for eveynight. too bad his lessons to me were cut short by his untimely demise. he may not know it but he will be one of the reasons i will strive to become a better doctor.
7. being ready. clerkship has taught me to be ready. to be confident of myself. my training employed a sense of "captain of the ship". i was responsible for my patients, to my residents, and to myself. it was one lesson i still keep on learning, coz its hard to decide on things. to things on your own. but going through one year of that predicament, made me became more aggressive with life. to take risks, to assert myself.
lastly, i learned im still at the brink of "i-dont-know-whats-next" stage. what will happen to me after i graduate. would i venture to a new world, a new hospital or would i stay to a place were i have become comfortable with? would i still see my friends, would i meet more friends? would i still be ready for things? can i handle new things?
questions that haunt me everyday as it becomes clearer to me that i have elevated myself from people... i finished MEDICINE.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
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