Friday, June 11, 2004

quick wit

last night, i was relaxing on my bed, tinkering with my palm, when i was called downstairs. it was ice and djo, soaking wet from the rain. they didnt inform me that they wud be coming to pick up the animation that i have done for them. they liked it thank god! and we spent a few hours at my room, eating popcorn and smoking. they brought chocolates as a token for my work. sweet!

they've always told me that i could make money making flash movies. well, id like to entertain the idea, but i dont suppose i could always have time for creative geniusness. and besides doing work for somebody, without having any remuneration at all, but praises and flattery is much more rewarding.

if would be paid for every flattery, i could have earned a thousand...just estimating...:)

then...

i woke up this morning at around 10. had my usual cup of hot cocoa (i love ricoa in the mornings), went to my parent's room and watched tv. when suddenly...a thought came to me...my 2nd ex really wanted a way out. that his frequent bickering about my whereabouts unmindful of the fact that i have told him my actual whereabouts, is just a matter of putting my patience to the limit till it explodes and wush! gone!

he texted me a few days ago...saying that he still thinks about me...that he still loves me...and that eventhough he has someone new now, he still love me. WHOAH! YOU HEARD IT RIGHT....SOMEONE NEW! we broke up holy thursday of ths year. and in just a 1 month and whatnot he has someone new already. i want to cry. but i just can't.

im sweet...but forgettable...easily ignored...

to them it didnt matter much the times spent and the love spent. it was just so abruptly.

the important realization there is for me is that: its easy for them to brush off things, when i'm still having trouble working my way out.

it takes time...

i dont want a rebound...

that doesnt bounce...

damn...

2 comments:

Marik said...

hmm... you don't seem forgettable. proof? your ex is still hung up on you- even if he's already in a relationship. and i don't think there are rebound relationships either. no matter how long the gap is between relationships, it still depends on how you've moved on before you commit to someone new. so i guess your next one is worth the wait. don't look down on yourself. :)

[nRq] said...

i dont know, i still feel that way. ewan ko! basta! tangna nila lahat!