first ward, first patient, first terror

this is such a bad way to end the week. shit talaga! this morning i had my medicine class at OM at 7am...and what do u know? a quiz! i should have known. i failed as expected...2/10. at least i knew the chief complaint. id like to reason out my failure...i was reading last night about previous lectures but didnt finish it since during that time the anaesthetic effect on my gum is slowly diminishing and i could feel the pain sinking in. so i drank my mefenamic and went on to sleep. had i finished reading i could have passed the exam.

but that didnt end it...

after the quiz we were ordered to go to the medicine ward at the fourth floor of OM to take patient history. we were grouped into 6. ours arrived first on the wards. at the entrance we were given our assigned patient. A.A., 39 y/o, room 406. so there we went. we first let the doctors and clerks and interns do their rounds before we entered. everything was going on fine. we were asking questions from the general data upto the persol/social history. until, we went back to the classroom.

since we were the ones who arrived first, we finished first. we were looking for our precepts to ask wats next but they were no where to be found. so we assumed they were in the faculty/classroom waiting. we didnt found them at the classroom. and we continue discussing about the patient on our own. when suddenly Dr. Guzman came...

'sino may sabi pwede na kayo bumaba?, bat bumaba kayo?'

shit...eto na sabi ko! lalampasuhin na kme...

damn you doc! no one informed us not to go downstairs...your intructions are incomplete and unreliable! shit ka! (but of course i didnt utter these)

its his word against us. kahit pa alam namin ang totoo, pag sinabi nila sinabi nila.

with us were 2 other groups. and dr. guzman said in his most warning tone of a voice..."sa friday, kayong 3 ang uunahin ko...pinakamahirap na precept sa inyo"

'talaga?' sabi ng mga friends ko. 'hay naku di ako natatakot' the other uttered in the most secretive way.

and i just simply said 'ako din'...but deep inside my intestines are coiling, my hands shaky, my perspiration as numerous than ever before. i was already being paranoid. cussing and enumerating the scenarios in my head.

shit talaga! first ward ko! first patient ko and eto ako takot na takot!

but isa lang ang panlaban sa lahat ng ito!

ARAL MABUTI!