met the bestfriend

all my worries was just blown away as i saw my bestfriend last night. it was like seeing her for the very first time. you know that feeling when youre in your first day in school and you dont know anybody... thats what i felt. i opened our gates and she just hugged me. it felt nice (nice kse masarap sya yakapin kse sobrang taba nya. hehehe). anyway, my family greeted her and welcomed her in. my parents told deric (her partner) to take good care of my bestfriend coz God knows how she has become my sister and part of the family.

we then went to BF in one of those restaurant strips they have there. margaux asked me what do i want to order but i just said ill just have beer coz im sure ill be needing a lot for that night. and yes it got me tipsy. on the long run of our conversation i have come to understand where she's coming from. i get to know deric which from the looks of him is quite mabait naman. and as margaux said, he takes care of her quite well, and i have to settle on that notion to be rest assured that she is being taken care of. i was teary eyed telling deric all the things margaux and i have gone through. i told deric to make margaux happy, coz thats all i wanted of her... to be happy. from the looks of it, she's happy. i remember that time when margaux got an ectopic pregnancy and she was living in our house. late at night i wake up and see her crying and telling me how she wanted the baby. its as if the baby is her saving glory. now i know having her baby now is what saves her. that i realized that its not whats wrong in her life, in fact it was something she did that was only right.

i've learned a lot from our talk last night... i've learned about friendships... ive learned about love. most importantly i've learned that i didnt became careless of our friendship... that somehow i have something to do on how well she is right now.

though i still can't reconcile the fact that she lied to be telling me she cant come to my grad party coz she's in cebu... my own bestfriend lied to me! arrrrgggghhhh.