Wednesday, December 28, 2005

pikot

yesterday i learned how it felt like for a guy who has been "pikot" to marry a girl.

for the first time in my entire queer life, i got to sign an application for marriage, and the sad part about it is that its with a girl...my bestfriend even. since her devoted fiancee is currently on dock at japan as a US Navy crew for the Kitty-Hawk, i was asked to proxy him and make beleive everyone at the municipal hall of Amadeos Cavity that im a full blooded STRAIGHT guy. which from margaux's sister-in-law's own divine words... i did perfectly. so there i was standing as ARCHIMEDES DEL ROSARIO, nodding my head with every question i certainly didnt knew the answer, even my address is being dictated to me. good thing the family seminar thing is rescheduled on the 19 just in time for the REAL archimedes to be back home, for god knows i wudnt want to go to such seminar... had enough in family and community medicine. awwwrrrgghh!

then later that day, tim, margaux and i headed for josephines and starbucks tagaytay. lounged ourselves in the cool, misty, and sweet tagaytay air. lovely. it was a perfect photo oppurtunity for each of us. its not always that the ALPHA PHI PI becomes complete. i love my bestfriends.

Monday, December 26, 2005

rapid eye movement

i got awaken this evening with the thought that an earthquake is rocking my bed only to find out that its my heart palpitating. and now i cant sleep my head off. i hate when these things happen. you wanted to sleep... youre in good sleep actually then all of a sudden youd wake up (probably thought of something instantaneously or by a text or call on your mobile) then realizing it wasnt a big of a deal, you decide to sleep again but the universe conspires for you to have trouble getting back in.

something IS bothering me. it has already been close to a year since my last relationship, and i know i shouldnt be blogging about these kinds of stuffs here all over again. nevertheless theres no one to talk to about it. i miss having someone. i come to think of it, i NEVER had a relationship in the first place. none that you cud call "long-term". it bothers me that as much as i wanted to have one, the more it becomes allusive. countless times this year ive been to that point of falling in love (and god knows how easily i am to fall), but for some sort of reason they either ran away from me or something in them that in the course of our acquaintance is prone to having PD's.

i dont know if the problem is with me or with them. i dont suppose im that bad looking (well i may not have the body or the face of a celebrity). i've always told myself that whatever my looks "lacks", my personality can compensate (much more my brain). but most of the time its not always the case. as what ive come to learn, not all people would like to have a "book" as a partner, or a "house-on-the-back" kinda guy as a bf, and much worse an "insecure-freakazoid" as a lover. people like "good-looking metrosexual" guys whos up for various activities per-se. though there are a few who dig guys like "me", but sooner or later theyd disappear like bubbles would in the air. funny coz if guys like me where infectious and contagious even, we cud have killed many with toll deaths equal to the tsunami victims.

i wonder where cud those "real" men be? or am i just not ready for him? questions remain to bother me, and comprise about one-third of my incapacity to get into sleep quickly. my ARAS center is hyperfunctioning again.

if only there's a way to actually find answers to common questions like what i have...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

4 days to go!!!!



it has been a long time since i used the alphabet to blog. so many things has happend to me. things that are so drastic and life changing. of course there was the death of my one of our barakda. coming through this year's christmas, i wudnt want to wish for my grades and stuff. id like to wish for my health. for everybody's health. living in this era made me realize that everyday we are at risk. that any minute we cud be gone. i wish that everybody be healthy (esp med students!).

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yesterday, our class had our xmas lunch out. im so happy with the gift i recieved... its an electric toothbrush! hehe. i love brushing with it. then later that night, we went to tagaytay starbucks. and it was freezing cold. i had a nice bonding with my barakda. very laid back. i liked it.



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congrats to my blockmates for winning 2nd at the annual MTG (med natatagong galing), galing galing natin!!!!. hehe. isang firedancer lang talaga nagpatalo satin! hmp

to our candidates for mr and ms medicine congrats din. for sai in her winning theme costume (as designed by me, and worked by bon and y and the others). as well as to robert, for bagging the 1st runner up. and to my co-hosts alex, you did a good job. lastly, to my orgmates, LIKAS, i know natoxic tayong lahat, maraming nasigawan ng ating presidente, maraming nakauwi na ng gabi, pero at the end of the day, it was all worth it. thanks!!!! we are a great org!

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to everyone, happy holidays!