this is such a bad way to end the week. shit talaga! this morning i had my medicine class at OM at 7am...and what do u know? a quiz! i should have known. i failed as expected...2/10. at least i knew the chief complaint. id like to reason out my failure...i was reading last night about previous lectures but didnt finish it since during that time the anaesthetic effect on my gum is slowly diminishing and i could feel the pain sinking in. so i drank my mefenamic and went on to sleep. had i finished reading i could have passed the exam.
but that didnt end it...
after the quiz we were ordered to go to the medicine ward at the fourth floor of OM to take patient history. we were grouped into 6. ours arrived first on the wards. at the entrance we were given our assigned patient. A.A., 39 y/o, room 406. so there we went. we first let the doctors and clerks and interns do their rounds before we entered. everything was going on fine. we were asking questions from the general data upto the persol/social history. until, we went back to the classroom.
since we were the ones who arrived first, we finished first. we were looking for our precepts to ask wats next but they were no where to be found. so we assumed they were in the faculty/classroom waiting. we didnt found them at the classroom. and we continue discussing about the patient on our own. when suddenly Dr. Guzman came...
'sino may sabi pwede na kayo bumaba?, bat bumaba kayo?'
shit...eto na sabi ko! lalampasuhin na kme...
damn you doc! no one informed us not to go downstairs...your intructions are incomplete and unreliable! shit ka! (but of course i didnt utter these)
its his word against us. kahit pa alam namin ang totoo, pag sinabi nila sinabi nila.
with us were 2 other groups. and dr. guzman said in his most warning tone of a voice..."sa friday, kayong 3 ang uunahin ko...pinakamahirap na precept sa inyo"
'talaga?' sabi ng mga friends ko. 'hay naku di ako natatakot' the other uttered in the most secretive way.
and i just simply said 'ako din'...but deep inside my intestines are coiling, my hands shaky, my perspiration as numerous than ever before. i was already being paranoid. cussing and enumerating the scenarios in my head.
shit talaga! first ward ko! first patient ko and eto ako takot na takot!
but isa lang ang panlaban sa lahat ng ito!
ARAL MABUTI!
Friday, June 25, 2004
Thursday, June 24, 2004
my tooth extraction
a few months ago my dental pasta was destroyed and i havent had a chance to go to the dentist due to skul constraints and by the time i got free of it i procrastinated. until last night, when i came home from skul and brushing my teeth, a part of my 3rd molar fell off. a signal that i should have it removed. and so i did.
me and mom first went to baclaran to where my sister usu had her cleaning and stuff. her unusual and incomplete sense of direction led us to nowhere. it pissed me off. she always pisses me off. so after the long walk in baclaran, we've decided to go back to the dentist we knew way back from our old house in mia. and shit, it couldnt get any unluckier than this coz the doctor was out. shit talaga. so our last resort is to that dentist in Jaka. we didnt consider it in the first place eventhough its much closer to the village since they charge a whole lot of money for a tooth extraction. we're nearing the clinic when my mom saw a dental clinic at the second floor of a once was a cinema. we went there and inquired. 300 pesos! hmmm thats ok.
and then it was all there. it was my first time to have my tooth extraction since i never had problems with my teeth before except for a few dental plasta and cleaning.
'ang tigas ng ngipin mo..kanina ko pa inuuga ayaw man lang mahila'
and i just smiled. he was cute you know (the dentist). i think he's bi. a proof would be his incling for mtv at the middle of his work. its an immature reason but i still have a gut feeling. and he was good too, he has good hands and most important...a intuitive patient care.
for now i should be content not to smoke for a few days or so. im sure my alveolar macrophages and type II pneumonocytes are rejoicing. having a party at this very instance. well...happy fiesta LUNGS!
me and mom first went to baclaran to where my sister usu had her cleaning and stuff. her unusual and incomplete sense of direction led us to nowhere. it pissed me off. she always pisses me off. so after the long walk in baclaran, we've decided to go back to the dentist we knew way back from our old house in mia. and shit, it couldnt get any unluckier than this coz the doctor was out. shit talaga. so our last resort is to that dentist in Jaka. we didnt consider it in the first place eventhough its much closer to the village since they charge a whole lot of money for a tooth extraction. we're nearing the clinic when my mom saw a dental clinic at the second floor of a once was a cinema. we went there and inquired. 300 pesos! hmmm thats ok.
and then it was all there. it was my first time to have my tooth extraction since i never had problems with my teeth before except for a few dental plasta and cleaning.
'ang tigas ng ngipin mo..kanina ko pa inuuga ayaw man lang mahila'
and i just smiled. he was cute you know (the dentist). i think he's bi. a proof would be his incling for mtv at the middle of his work. its an immature reason but i still have a gut feeling. and he was good too, he has good hands and most important...a intuitive patient care.
for now i should be content not to smoke for a few days or so. im sure my alveolar macrophages and type II pneumonocytes are rejoicing. having a party at this very instance. well...happy fiesta LUNGS!
Monday, June 21, 2004
i must have have moved on
my make-up class in micro/para was cancelled this afternoon... pedia class thought we have one thats why they dismissed us early (for god knows our topic in that class today is a total boredom...bummer).
on my way home, i was listening to my mp3 of MYMP's dreaming without you. i have been listening to it all summer long until now. and i like the way the idea of the song sinks in to me like how vitamins are absorbed by the enterocytes. well anyhow, i came into a conclusion that i must have had move on from my first ex. the fortuitous (love the word) event that came last friday of seeing each other, didnt really bothered me much. i always expect our meet-up to be like somber and gray and full of bitterness. but the thing is it wasnt. minus the fact that i still have a little bit of bitterness seeing him, all in all it came out fine. it was just like meeting an old classmate whom i had a grudge with all highskul and swore to never to talk to again. it was like an acquintance. except that smiles and waving of hands are out of the question.
id like to see him again...maybe i would smile, or wave a hand, or do something...but the question is...would he smile back? or wave me hand? or do something as well?
frightening!
on my way home, i was listening to my mp3 of MYMP's dreaming without you. i have been listening to it all summer long until now. and i like the way the idea of the song sinks in to me like how vitamins are absorbed by the enterocytes. well anyhow, i came into a conclusion that i must have had move on from my first ex. the fortuitous (love the word) event that came last friday of seeing each other, didnt really bothered me much. i always expect our meet-up to be like somber and gray and full of bitterness. but the thing is it wasnt. minus the fact that i still have a little bit of bitterness seeing him, all in all it came out fine. it was just like meeting an old classmate whom i had a grudge with all highskul and swore to never to talk to again. it was like an acquintance. except that smiles and waving of hands are out of the question.
id like to see him again...maybe i would smile, or wave a hand, or do something...but the question is...would he smile back? or wave me hand? or do something as well?
frightening!
Sunday, June 20, 2004
Saturday, June 19, 2004
first week of med life and the EX'S
Monday: OB and Pedia
usual first day, excitement and anticipation. it was nice to see old faces of my classmates that i missed all throughout summer. and new faces as well of first yr meds whom i can see the eagerness to study in their eyes. OB class was quite nice. we had lecture and a quiz. first time that i had a quiz on a first day of class. anyway it was easy though i got wrong on the computation of LMP (last menstrual cycle) coz i swear i didnt knew it was a leap year. bummer. Pedia was ayyyt (ala randy jackson).
Tuesday: Pathology and Surgery
this one i had not much fun. first thing, our prof in patho was gay. and he has this hasty generalizations that people seated at the back (which is my usual seat) are the ones who are either late or doesnt know anything. he would always call out people at the back for answers to stupid questions like "whats the topic of chapter 1 of Robbins?" for god knows i dont know! i havent lifted my book...much more look at it. in addition to the fact that he gives 200 item shifting exams is what bothers me most in passing this class. Surgery class is boring. we had the class at OM (ospital ng maynila) accademic building (which was dormitory for clerks and interns before). it was so not fit to be a classroom with all the buzzing jeeps on the lateral side and the noisy industrial fan that we have to keep us cool in the most hell place i could have had to study. i just hope i could get good grades in it.
Wednesday: Pharmacology and FCM
pharma was interesting. the faculty was interesting. they're all eccentric. i love it! i had this one prof who's hair only grows half of his head and one woman who reminds me of those people in BATIBOT that gives stories to children. FCM well...its nothing.
after fcm class i went directly to the nursing avr to host the college organization orientation. it was fun. i love being seen by people and being popular. hehehe. i had nina who co-hosted the event with me and she was terrific, she knows how to handle my jokes and make her own as well. it was fun!
Thursday: Microbiology and Parasitology
this class i like coz it had Dr. Malijan in it. i like her, she's a carbon copy of Maria Ressa the CNN correspondent for asia and the pacific. she was cool and the rest of the faculty is cool. just like as she term it, an all girl group. cool
Friday: Medicine 1 and Clinical Pathology
medicine class was also in OM. thank god its a morning class or else i want to drop it. nevertheless the lecture given to us was interesting. it was about history taking. i cant wait to go into the wards and take patient history. my stet is ready. in clinical path, we had a quiz about venipuncture. i failed in that. i got 5/10. bummer. its bcoz of that lokalokang precept, that laughs in the most inconvenient time, in the most outrageous circumstance and in a joke that she only thinks is funny. but i like her. she's eccentric.
all in all, i had 2 quizes in my first week and a lecture in all subjects which were new to me since first weeks to me are nothing but laxing, and relaxing.
THE EX'S
my 2nd ex was texting me still. wanting me to comeback. friday, when he texted me giving me a hint of suicidal tendencies on my way home. i told him id talk to him this day. i hope i could help him.
then also friday, i was at starbucks with 2 of my med friends, margx and wapi. we were chatting. i was looking at the movie list from a far when i saw my first ex (hes a first year at UP-PGH). it was terrifying. i thought i had syncope in that instance. i didnt expect to see him. may 1 of last year that i last saw him. i didnt knew what to react when i saw him. i was sipping my coffee and that gave me a reason not to smile. he actually stopped in front of me, and our eyes met. i was excited and i think he was too. nevertheless i didnt smile. he didnt either. i shifted my gaze. and on my peripheral vision i saw him talked to one of his companion to tell probably that i was his ex.
my friend told me after he left that "buti na lang enriq and gwapo mo ngayon!"
hahaha. i hope he realizes what he was missing out.
usual first day, excitement and anticipation. it was nice to see old faces of my classmates that i missed all throughout summer. and new faces as well of first yr meds whom i can see the eagerness to study in their eyes. OB class was quite nice. we had lecture and a quiz. first time that i had a quiz on a first day of class. anyway it was easy though i got wrong on the computation of LMP (last menstrual cycle) coz i swear i didnt knew it was a leap year. bummer. Pedia was ayyyt (ala randy jackson).
Tuesday: Pathology and Surgery
this one i had not much fun. first thing, our prof in patho was gay. and he has this hasty generalizations that people seated at the back (which is my usual seat) are the ones who are either late or doesnt know anything. he would always call out people at the back for answers to stupid questions like "whats the topic of chapter 1 of Robbins?" for god knows i dont know! i havent lifted my book...much more look at it. in addition to the fact that he gives 200 item shifting exams is what bothers me most in passing this class. Surgery class is boring. we had the class at OM (ospital ng maynila) accademic building (which was dormitory for clerks and interns before). it was so not fit to be a classroom with all the buzzing jeeps on the lateral side and the noisy industrial fan that we have to keep us cool in the most hell place i could have had to study. i just hope i could get good grades in it.
Wednesday: Pharmacology and FCM
pharma was interesting. the faculty was interesting. they're all eccentric. i love it! i had this one prof who's hair only grows half of his head and one woman who reminds me of those people in BATIBOT that gives stories to children. FCM well...its nothing.
after fcm class i went directly to the nursing avr to host the college organization orientation. it was fun. i love being seen by people and being popular. hehehe. i had nina who co-hosted the event with me and she was terrific, she knows how to handle my jokes and make her own as well. it was fun!
Thursday: Microbiology and Parasitology
this class i like coz it had Dr. Malijan in it. i like her, she's a carbon copy of Maria Ressa the CNN correspondent for asia and the pacific. she was cool and the rest of the faculty is cool. just like as she term it, an all girl group. cool
Friday: Medicine 1 and Clinical Pathology
medicine class was also in OM. thank god its a morning class or else i want to drop it. nevertheless the lecture given to us was interesting. it was about history taking. i cant wait to go into the wards and take patient history. my stet is ready. in clinical path, we had a quiz about venipuncture. i failed in that. i got 5/10. bummer. its bcoz of that lokalokang precept, that laughs in the most inconvenient time, in the most outrageous circumstance and in a joke that she only thinks is funny. but i like her. she's eccentric.
all in all, i had 2 quizes in my first week and a lecture in all subjects which were new to me since first weeks to me are nothing but laxing, and relaxing.
THE EX'S
my 2nd ex was texting me still. wanting me to comeback. friday, when he texted me giving me a hint of suicidal tendencies on my way home. i told him id talk to him this day. i hope i could help him.
then also friday, i was at starbucks with 2 of my med friends, margx and wapi. we were chatting. i was looking at the movie list from a far when i saw my first ex (hes a first year at UP-PGH). it was terrifying. i thought i had syncope in that instance. i didnt expect to see him. may 1 of last year that i last saw him. i didnt knew what to react when i saw him. i was sipping my coffee and that gave me a reason not to smile. he actually stopped in front of me, and our eyes met. i was excited and i think he was too. nevertheless i didnt smile. he didnt either. i shifted my gaze. and on my peripheral vision i saw him talked to one of his companion to tell probably that i was his ex.
my friend told me after he left that "buti na lang enriq and gwapo mo ngayon!"
hahaha. i hope he realizes what he was missing out.
Friday, June 11, 2004
quick wit
last night, i was relaxing on my bed, tinkering with my palm, when i was called downstairs. it was ice and djo, soaking wet from the rain. they didnt inform me that they wud be coming to pick up the animation that i have done for them. they liked it thank god! and we spent a few hours at my room, eating popcorn and smoking. they brought chocolates as a token for my work. sweet!
they've always told me that i could make money making flash movies. well, id like to entertain the idea, but i dont suppose i could always have time for creative geniusness. and besides doing work for somebody, without having any remuneration at all, but praises and flattery is much more rewarding.
if would be paid for every flattery, i could have earned a thousand...just estimating...:)
then...
i woke up this morning at around 10. had my usual cup of hot cocoa (i love ricoa in the mornings), went to my parent's room and watched tv. when suddenly...a thought came to me...my 2nd ex really wanted a way out. that his frequent bickering about my whereabouts unmindful of the fact that i have told him my actual whereabouts, is just a matter of putting my patience to the limit till it explodes and wush! gone!
he texted me a few days ago...saying that he still thinks about me...that he still loves me...and that eventhough he has someone new now, he still love me. WHOAH! YOU HEARD IT RIGHT....SOMEONE NEW! we broke up holy thursday of ths year. and in just a 1 month and whatnot he has someone new already. i want to cry. but i just can't.
im sweet...but forgettable...easily ignored...
to them it didnt matter much the times spent and the love spent. it was just so abruptly.
the important realization there is for me is that: its easy for them to brush off things, when i'm still having trouble working my way out.
it takes time...
i dont want a rebound...
that doesnt bounce...
damn...
they've always told me that i could make money making flash movies. well, id like to entertain the idea, but i dont suppose i could always have time for creative geniusness. and besides doing work for somebody, without having any remuneration at all, but praises and flattery is much more rewarding.
if would be paid for every flattery, i could have earned a thousand...just estimating...:)
then...
i woke up this morning at around 10. had my usual cup of hot cocoa (i love ricoa in the mornings), went to my parent's room and watched tv. when suddenly...a thought came to me...my 2nd ex really wanted a way out. that his frequent bickering about my whereabouts unmindful of the fact that i have told him my actual whereabouts, is just a matter of putting my patience to the limit till it explodes and wush! gone!
he texted me a few days ago...saying that he still thinks about me...that he still loves me...and that eventhough he has someone new now, he still love me. WHOAH! YOU HEARD IT RIGHT....SOMEONE NEW! we broke up holy thursday of ths year. and in just a 1 month and whatnot he has someone new already. i want to cry. but i just can't.
im sweet...but forgettable...easily ignored...
to them it didnt matter much the times spent and the love spent. it was just so abruptly.
the important realization there is for me is that: its easy for them to brush off things, when i'm still having trouble working my way out.
it takes time...
i dont want a rebound...
that doesnt bounce...
damn...
Thursday, June 10, 2004
funeral tour
Tues afternoon, i was sleeping my head out from the lack of it the night before when 3 of my med friends came over the house and asked me if i could make a macromedia flash animation for the organization orientation on what was supposedly June 10. I took the offer and made them one. My phone rang and it was my friend em with wretched news that my friend's mom just passed away.
I was in awe, shocked! i just couldn't beleive it since i havent hearing from my friend anything bad about his mom having such a medical predicament. all i knew was that his mom has DM type II and that according to my friend has now become systemic (actually it is systemic).
then, fortuitously, another friend gave me the news that one of my med friend and groupmate's dad also passed away. that i wasn't shocked since i know the medical background of his dad. and it was much easier to acccept than the previous news.
Wed came and with pau (friend) we went on a funeral tour.
i came home late at around 3. i rode a taxi on the way home. i rode 2 actually. since the first let me out in buendia after dropping a aj, coz he doesnt know the my place. stupid! the fact that HE IS a taxi driver he should have known roads, places and stuffs that has to do with traffic and MMDA. and he explained that he usu drives in bulacan. FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! what is he doing in manila in the first place! shit! so i hail another, which i was forced to be dropped in Multinational since my budget didnt allow me to go any further with his BLAZING SPEED METER (but he was not driving in blazing speed mind you!).
at home i have come to realize, that i am really getting older. that realities of death and sickness is actually apprehending me of future episodes. before when i was a kid with my friends i have always thought that parents are always there...that they will be forever. but now, it all makes sense...everything has its reasons and everything has its end. im fortunate i still have my parents. i lucky to have them still loving each other and caring for each other.
if ever time comes, i dont want to die before my parents do. coz i know they wouldnt hadle it properly. i dont want to be a burden. it would be much easier for me... though not that much...
I was in awe, shocked! i just couldn't beleive it since i havent hearing from my friend anything bad about his mom having such a medical predicament. all i knew was that his mom has DM type II and that according to my friend has now become systemic (actually it is systemic).
then, fortuitously, another friend gave me the news that one of my med friend and groupmate's dad also passed away. that i wasn't shocked since i know the medical background of his dad. and it was much easier to acccept than the previous news.
Wed came and with pau (friend) we went on a funeral tour.
i came home late at around 3. i rode a taxi on the way home. i rode 2 actually. since the first let me out in buendia after dropping a aj, coz he doesnt know the my place. stupid! the fact that HE IS a taxi driver he should have known roads, places and stuffs that has to do with traffic and MMDA. and he explained that he usu drives in bulacan. FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! what is he doing in manila in the first place! shit! so i hail another, which i was forced to be dropped in Multinational since my budget didnt allow me to go any further with his BLAZING SPEED METER (but he was not driving in blazing speed mind you!).
at home i have come to realize, that i am really getting older. that realities of death and sickness is actually apprehending me of future episodes. before when i was a kid with my friends i have always thought that parents are always there...that they will be forever. but now, it all makes sense...everything has its reasons and everything has its end. im fortunate i still have my parents. i lucky to have them still loving each other and caring for each other.
if ever time comes, i dont want to die before my parents do. coz i know they wouldnt hadle it properly. i dont want to be a burden. it would be much easier for me... though not that much...
Sunday, June 06, 2004
my last night out
it's so ironic that whenver my highskul barkada plans for a gimik night i failed to go (which is often), and when its time for me to plan for a gimik only one came...sad
anyway, last night i met up with my 2 of my med friends...laurice with her bf, raich with hers too. me and laurice ate at cafe breton. i ordered the galette americain and a green tea. on the backdrop was a jazz band player deafeaning sounds of the trumpets and what it sounds like gongs. i never knew jazz could be so loud. i almost ran deaf.
after dinner we went to Temple, which i hate coz some stupid bunch of people reserved the entire smoking area and that left us going to club halo.
we were early...as early as a bird for his worm. after a while, my friend geri whos the marketing manager of the club came and the rest was a drinking spree, a little dance and stuff. i came home at around 4 am. and my head throbbing, aching...in pain
by the way, aiko melendez and christine jaka was there. they were both pretty. aiko's got thin and christine jaka was superbly sexy...i almost want to sex her. haahahahaha NOT!
anyway, last night i met up with my 2 of my med friends...laurice with her bf, raich with hers too. me and laurice ate at cafe breton. i ordered the galette americain and a green tea. on the backdrop was a jazz band player deafeaning sounds of the trumpets and what it sounds like gongs. i never knew jazz could be so loud. i almost ran deaf.
after dinner we went to Temple, which i hate coz some stupid bunch of people reserved the entire smoking area and that left us going to club halo.
we were early...as early as a bird for his worm. after a while, my friend geri whos the marketing manager of the club came and the rest was a drinking spree, a little dance and stuff. i came home at around 4 am. and my head throbbing, aching...in pain
by the way, aiko melendez and christine jaka was there. they were both pretty. aiko's got thin and christine jaka was superbly sexy...i almost want to sex her. haahahahaha NOT!
it's so ironic that whenver my highskul barkada plans for a gimik night i failed to go (which is often), and when its time for me to plan for a gimik only one came...sad
anyway, last night i met up with my 2 of my med friends...laurice with her bf, raich with hers too. me and laurice ate at cafe breton. i ordered the galette americain and a green tea. on the backdrop was a jazz band player deafeaning sounds of the trumpets and what it sounds like gongs. i never knew jazz could be so loud. i almost ran deaf.
after dinner we went to Temple, which i hate coz some stupid bunch of people reserved the entire smoking area and that left us going to club halo.
we were early...as early as a bird for his worm. after a while, my friend geri whos the marketing manager of the club came and the rest was a drinking spree, a little dance and stuff. i came home at around 4 am. and my head throbbing, aching...in pain
by the way, aiko melendez and christine jaka was there. they were both pretty. aiko's got thin and christine jaka was superbly sexy...i almost want to sex her. haahahahaha NOT!
anyway, last night i met up with my 2 of my med friends...laurice with her bf, raich with hers too. me and laurice ate at cafe breton. i ordered the galette americain and a green tea. on the backdrop was a jazz band player deafeaning sounds of the trumpets and what it sounds like gongs. i never knew jazz could be so loud. i almost ran deaf.
after dinner we went to Temple, which i hate coz some stupid bunch of people reserved the entire smoking area and that left us going to club halo.
we were early...as early as a bird for his worm. after a while, my friend geri whos the marketing manager of the club came and the rest was a drinking spree, a little dance and stuff. i came home at around 4 am. and my head throbbing, aching...in pain
by the way, aiko melendez and christine jaka was there. they were both pretty. aiko's got thin and christine jaka was superbly sexy...i almost want to sex her. haahahahaha NOT!
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