today i went to PRC to officially file my application for the coming August Physician liscensure examination. they rejected my application since there is a discrepancy with my NSO birth certificate and the name i'm using in all of my documents. apparently, in my birth certificate i am PAPA II and according to them its not the same as PAPA JR. they wanted me to file for a pettition for correction at the municipal city of paranaque regarding my name. the catch is, it would take 2 months, 3000 php fee and a 2000 php publication fee before it can be released. i was in awe with the bad luck i have. upon hearing the no-nonsense solution of the lady at PRC i just stood there blankly. her saying the words "you cannot take the board exams" quickly sinked on me as i sat outside the office of the recieving window, holding the blue application paper which said "rejected". i felt rejected. i wanted to cry seeing other people filling up their forms, asking myself why are these things happening to me. i for once, among so many others, is so eager to take the boards, pass it, because i have so many plans for in my life that i cannot afford to just wait around.
it was so hard. i feld like all my hopes where crushed in an instant. i asked my husband to call me that very same instance. hearing him i really wanted to cry, but was too shy to let other people see me. after calling him, i felt i gave my husband another problem. from among the so many problems i have, i somehow subconsciously pass everything to him. he has so many problems of his own, i dont mean to contribute more. i feel like a worthless fool. my ultimate goal after passing the boards was just to be with him. and now i dont know what will happen. nani kept on telling me that everything will be alright, that every problem has its solution. my husband is keeping upp hope when i feel like i dont have one. times like this i really appreciate my nani so much. countless times he's right. like that one time i bickered over my broken VAIO, he himself researched on how to fix it, even buying me a vista cd. and that one time i cried over my tooth, he told me that like computers, teeth can be fixed. and now, at this time when i feel like everything is not going right, he says no matter what he will always be there for me. im sure he is right, that this is just a test, and nothing but a test, and i would come out of this alive.
its 11:00pm, and keeping the hope that my husband has for me, im still striving to review. there are some pauses in between topics as questions of "what if's" come into play. i pray that i can be allowed to take the boards. like any other applicants i beleive i should be given a chance, for God knows how badly i want this and how eager i am wanting this.
i love you hon with all my heart
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
tapus na ang ulan
ganda ng sinulat ng hon ko sa previous post. i never really thought that it was a big deal that i made a sign of the cross before we go to sleep. i didnt even know my hon is praying when were together. coz the minute he hugs me at night pipikit na yan, little did i know hes praying na pla. hehe. my hon isnt that too expressive with his feelings. minsan nanghuhula ako kung galit sya (which most of the times tama ang hula ko... galit nga sya), and minsan i dont know if he's crying kse wlang sound. but in the course of our relationship slowly i get to know my honey. i know his moods, his tantrums, his dislikes and likes, things that make him laugh and cry. there is so much to learn from my hon and what's interesting to know is that he's helping me grow as a person in so many aspects.
i hate to admit it but i broke my vaio... yes its barely a month and i cannot boot to the OS, i tried recovering it from the CD and the partition, but it always says error at 95%. tama ang hon, curiosity killed the cat. nani knows how likot i am, kaya super sorry ako when i informed him about it. hehe. its fascinating to know that it is my hon who gets all worried and he's even eager than i am to get it fixed. but unfortunately, the fate of my notebook rests on a technical service. if wla ang nani ko, im sure nagbigti na rin ako, or pinalo ko kamay ko sa pader hanggang dumugo.
im on my 2nd week of my review, as ara would say "analyzing part". i have finished Leg medicine and Prev Medicine. Gross anatomy is on my 2nd day of reveiw. and feel ko walang pumapasok. but my hon assures me meron, meron, meron sabay sampal! (joke). cgro kung iba ang partner ko, malamang walang pakielam yun kung mag aral ako or not. unlike my nani who give me stregth and confidence that i can do almost everything. sometimes i wonder what to do without him. i have lived my world around him, and i dont know any other thing that could make me happy but to see him happy as well. thanks hon for all these times. i love you!!!!
advanced happy 5th monthsary naniboy!
i hate to admit it but i broke my vaio... yes its barely a month and i cannot boot to the OS, i tried recovering it from the CD and the partition, but it always says error at 95%. tama ang hon, curiosity killed the cat. nani knows how likot i am, kaya super sorry ako when i informed him about it. hehe. its fascinating to know that it is my hon who gets all worried and he's even eager than i am to get it fixed. but unfortunately, the fate of my notebook rests on a technical service. if wla ang nani ko, im sure nagbigti na rin ako, or pinalo ko kamay ko sa pader hanggang dumugo.
im on my 2nd week of my review, as ara would say "analyzing part". i have finished Leg medicine and Prev Medicine. Gross anatomy is on my 2nd day of reveiw. and feel ko walang pumapasok. but my hon assures me meron, meron, meron sabay sampal! (joke). cgro kung iba ang partner ko, malamang walang pakielam yun kung mag aral ako or not. unlike my nani who give me stregth and confidence that i can do almost everything. sometimes i wonder what to do without him. i have lived my world around him, and i dont know any other thing that could make me happy but to see him happy as well. thanks hon for all these times. i love you!!!!
advanced happy 5th monthsary naniboy!
Monday, June 23, 2008
ULAN
Ulan
For the past days, it’s raining like hell. Brownout. No cable. No dial tone. Not much to do than to make “tunganga”….then pig out. Binge eating. Endless kulitan with my hon. Im glad I have a hon who always responds to my non sense SMS and who always makes it a point to remind me to eat, wake up, wake up and eat, eat , take a shower, wake up….such a bad routinely activity. I love rainy days. Love to laze around. Love the cold weather. But I hate to think about its effects to the less fortunate who are at risk to lose their properties and lives because of such lovely days for me. Sigh!….how can some things that make me feel good turn out to have bad effects for others? …that’s the irony of life I guess. I should be more selfless sometimes.
Heard the bad news about a vessel that sank coz of the typhoon. Prayed for the victims and their families. My nani also texted me that he prayed for them this morning. Im glad I left Cebu on time prior to the arrival of the typhoon in the area. I only stayed there for 2 days but it felt like forever coz I did a lot of meetings, meetings, meetings. And I was away from my nani again for the nth time! My honey has been constantly reminding me to relax, eat on time, take a nap, etc. etc while Im always on out of town trips. Im so lucky to have him in my life coz my situation is really pathetic at work…imagine, if I’m still single and I have this stressful job and I got stranded in Cebu because of the typhoon? …..I might end up hanging myself inside my hotel room if my serotonin level goes below the acceptable limits to cause me major depressive disorder…Im glad I have my nani who helps me keep the thin line that separates sanity from insanity….
Tomorrow, I’m contemplating on not reporting for work. It’s really flooded in our area. And in areas where I pass by on my way to work. Not feeling well too. Have a bad cold since Thursday. Febrile yesterday. Bakit ba meron kasing more than 2,000 rhinoviruses!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrr!!!!!!!!!! Im planning to sleep my head off and just pig out at home. Will Text my nani endlessly. Pray for the victims of Frank, the typhoon.
By the way, there’s this one thing that my hon does for me before we go to sleep when we’re together on weekend out of town trips... The first time he did that, I had goosebumps. I never experienced it from anyone else. Nobody ever did that to me. And it was so touching. I don’t usually express my way of communicating with God in front of my love ones. I just pray on my own. When Im with my nani, sometimes I just fall asleep after saying my evening prayers silently while hugging him…This “act” that he would do is use his hand to make the sign of the cross for me….Never did I think that my honey is such a spiritual person. I have always thought of him as mataray, self-centered, opinionated, firm, and someone to be afraid of pero mapagmahal! (hahahaha! totoo nani, kakatakot ka!). So when he did the sign of the cross for me, I was really moved by it. A very simple gesture of my honey but it reflects how goodhearted he is. A spirituality that is very pure and simple. The last time I did the sign of the cross before going to sleep was about 10 or 15 years ago. The simple gesture of my hon made me realize that perhaps, it’s because of his upbringing. I forgot that he grew up and studied in a Catholic school run by nuns and I suppose that my nani is living the life that is patterned after the lifestyle of the religious. My hon is not a saint. ( May santo bang nagyoyosi? Nyahaha…)He had a taste of worldly things during his juvenile years but what became clearer to me is that my honey is a very caring person. He wants to be a good doctor and take care of others’ physical ailments. Because of that act, I concretized the fact that he does not only want to care for me in mere physical or earthly aspects but he also wants to nurture my spiritual life and my possible life hereafter.I love him more because of that.
Ulan or rain would be perceived as a blessing for optimists. It could mean a disaster for pessimists. But for a believer like my honey, I know that everytime it rains (and even if it becomes a typhoon), he will look at it as a challenge that we can surpass at all times coz of the faith that he has. Moreso if he brings with him his PAYONG ( na “kahit sira at butas ay magsisilbing panangga ng ulan = like LOVE, nakanaaamputik-----hahahaha ”) which will serve as our weapon to shield our selves from the trials ( like a STORM or a TYPHOON ) that we will face in this relationship.
Love you my honey. Advance Happy 5th monthsary.
For the past days, it’s raining like hell. Brownout. No cable. No dial tone. Not much to do than to make “tunganga”….then pig out. Binge eating. Endless kulitan with my hon. Im glad I have a hon who always responds to my non sense SMS and who always makes it a point to remind me to eat, wake up, wake up and eat, eat , take a shower, wake up….such a bad routinely activity. I love rainy days. Love to laze around. Love the cold weather. But I hate to think about its effects to the less fortunate who are at risk to lose their properties and lives because of such lovely days for me. Sigh!….how can some things that make me feel good turn out to have bad effects for others? …that’s the irony of life I guess. I should be more selfless sometimes.
Heard the bad news about a vessel that sank coz of the typhoon. Prayed for the victims and their families. My nani also texted me that he prayed for them this morning. Im glad I left Cebu on time prior to the arrival of the typhoon in the area. I only stayed there for 2 days but it felt like forever coz I did a lot of meetings, meetings, meetings. And I was away from my nani again for the nth time! My honey has been constantly reminding me to relax, eat on time, take a nap, etc. etc while Im always on out of town trips. Im so lucky to have him in my life coz my situation is really pathetic at work…imagine, if I’m still single and I have this stressful job and I got stranded in Cebu because of the typhoon? …..I might end up hanging myself inside my hotel room if my serotonin level goes below the acceptable limits to cause me major depressive disorder…Im glad I have my nani who helps me keep the thin line that separates sanity from insanity….
Tomorrow, I’m contemplating on not reporting for work. It’s really flooded in our area. And in areas where I pass by on my way to work. Not feeling well too. Have a bad cold since Thursday. Febrile yesterday. Bakit ba meron kasing more than 2,000 rhinoviruses!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrr!!!!!!!!!! Im planning to sleep my head off and just pig out at home. Will Text my nani endlessly. Pray for the victims of Frank, the typhoon.
By the way, there’s this one thing that my hon does for me before we go to sleep when we’re together on weekend out of town trips... The first time he did that, I had goosebumps. I never experienced it from anyone else. Nobody ever did that to me. And it was so touching. I don’t usually express my way of communicating with God in front of my love ones. I just pray on my own. When Im with my nani, sometimes I just fall asleep after saying my evening prayers silently while hugging him…This “act” that he would do is use his hand to make the sign of the cross for me….Never did I think that my honey is such a spiritual person. I have always thought of him as mataray, self-centered, opinionated, firm, and someone to be afraid of pero mapagmahal! (hahahaha! totoo nani, kakatakot ka!). So when he did the sign of the cross for me, I was really moved by it. A very simple gesture of my honey but it reflects how goodhearted he is. A spirituality that is very pure and simple. The last time I did the sign of the cross before going to sleep was about 10 or 15 years ago. The simple gesture of my hon made me realize that perhaps, it’s because of his upbringing. I forgot that he grew up and studied in a Catholic school run by nuns and I suppose that my nani is living the life that is patterned after the lifestyle of the religious. My hon is not a saint. ( May santo bang nagyoyosi? Nyahaha…)He had a taste of worldly things during his juvenile years but what became clearer to me is that my honey is a very caring person. He wants to be a good doctor and take care of others’ physical ailments. Because of that act, I concretized the fact that he does not only want to care for me in mere physical or earthly aspects but he also wants to nurture my spiritual life and my possible life hereafter.I love him more because of that.
Ulan or rain would be perceived as a blessing for optimists. It could mean a disaster for pessimists. But for a believer like my honey, I know that everytime it rains (and even if it becomes a typhoon), he will look at it as a challenge that we can surpass at all times coz of the faith that he has. Moreso if he brings with him his PAYONG ( na “kahit sira at butas ay magsisilbing panangga ng ulan = like LOVE, nakanaaamputik-----hahahaha ”) which will serve as our weapon to shield our selves from the trials ( like a STORM or a TYPHOON ) that we will face in this relationship.
Love you my honey. Advance Happy 5th monthsary.
Monday, June 09, 2008
our fourth month
i just arrived home and im still overly elated with my husband. we met yesterday to celebrate our fourth month. it was different of our past celebration coz last night we gave away tons of medications for patients at OM-IM, doc eva who recieved it was ecstatic and i know doc pia (who is the kindest) would be happy as well. sarap ng feeling pla pag nagbibigay ka sa charity (celebrity...actually socialite nga twag sakin ng hon and doc eva, sayang lang walang picture habang binibigay ko yung gamot). nani also saw the inside of OM and what really shocked him was the delapidated, derelict clerk's quarters. sbi nya he can't believe we have survived such a ghastly place (kaya nagdalawang isip na ang hon kung sa OM ako mag reresidency). upon seeing that nani now understands much of our need for a conducive quarters with real beds just like at MCM. nun nakita naman ng hon yung quarters namin sa MCM, ang comment naman nya "susme ang daming kama!", ako naman "hello? pinagaagawan pa nga namin yan". hahahaha.
i know since friday pa pagod ang hon but he managed to spend a little time with me yesterday. last sat he was at Baseco for their annual medical mission which left my hon smelling like sewage... hehehe. i cant wait to see your interview nani on TV. ang siste, ang hon naman tumatawag sakin para itanong kung pwede ilipat sa OM yung mga patients coz most of the patients who went was admissible. iba tlga ang tandam namin di ba? then sunday, yesterday he was out the whole day to accompany his friends from Canada on a shopping spree, of course nagmaktol na naman ang nani sa init, nahawa na tuloy yung mga kids kse pati sila nagmaktol hahaha.
my hon's exclusive traits (from his pamangkin's point of view)
1. pagnatutulog laging may unan sa mukha
2. pagnatulog di na nagigicing
3. pagnagicing at kinausap mo di ka sasagutin
4. pagkumakain at kinausap mo sisimangot
5. pagnagsisipilyo at kinausap mo susungitan ka
lastly...
pagtinopak...magtago ka na! hahaha love you nani! peace!
eventhough my hon has this somewhat erratic qualities, i still find him the sweetest guy ive ever known. who would have thought that for someone who always gets people scared has so much softness and candidness. his jokes are so much fun to hear that only he can deliver it with wit and infective laughter. thats why madami din nagmamahal sa asawa ko, either be it in work, house and with my friends. my friends love my nani so much. kaya naman proud na proud ako sa kanya. ang mga text ng mga kaibigan ko after is "sana makahanap din ako ng tulad ng sau enriq". hay naku wish lang nila, hmmm cgro nga makakahanap sila in like a million years from now kse one in a million lang ang hon ko (nakanah!!!!! hahaha), ang cheesy ko na ba hon?
anyway, seeing my honey, being with him, ment so much for me. it gave me another boost to study... i love you honey ko!!!! happy 5th monthsary, madami pa tayo celebrations together.
nani gave me this very beautiful watch (a month ago he gave me a tag heur formula 1 watch). may bago na ko kakalikutin nani! heheh thanks thanks!
cologne bigay ng hon, para daw bumango bango ako! uhmmmmmm... :( love you
i know since friday pa pagod ang hon but he managed to spend a little time with me yesterday. last sat he was at Baseco for their annual medical mission which left my hon smelling like sewage... hehehe. i cant wait to see your interview nani on TV. ang siste, ang hon naman tumatawag sakin para itanong kung pwede ilipat sa OM yung mga patients coz most of the patients who went was admissible. iba tlga ang tandam namin di ba? then sunday, yesterday he was out the whole day to accompany his friends from Canada on a shopping spree, of course nagmaktol na naman ang nani sa init, nahawa na tuloy yung mga kids kse pati sila nagmaktol hahaha.
my hon's exclusive traits (from his pamangkin's point of view)
1. pagnatutulog laging may unan sa mukha
2. pagnatulog di na nagigicing
3. pagnagicing at kinausap mo di ka sasagutin
4. pagkumakain at kinausap mo sisimangot
5. pagnagsisipilyo at kinausap mo susungitan ka
lastly...
pagtinopak...magtago ka na! hahaha love you nani! peace!
eventhough my hon has this somewhat erratic qualities, i still find him the sweetest guy ive ever known. who would have thought that for someone who always gets people scared has so much softness and candidness. his jokes are so much fun to hear that only he can deliver it with wit and infective laughter. thats why madami din nagmamahal sa asawa ko, either be it in work, house and with my friends. my friends love my nani so much. kaya naman proud na proud ako sa kanya. ang mga text ng mga kaibigan ko after is "sana makahanap din ako ng tulad ng sau enriq". hay naku wish lang nila, hmmm cgro nga makakahanap sila in like a million years from now kse one in a million lang ang hon ko (nakanah!!!!! hahaha), ang cheesy ko na ba hon?
anyway, seeing my honey, being with him, ment so much for me. it gave me another boost to study... i love you honey ko!!!! happy 5th monthsary, madami pa tayo celebrations together.
nani gave me this very beautiful watch (a month ago he gave me a tag heur formula 1 watch). may bago na ko kakalikutin nani! heheh thanks thanks!
cologne bigay ng hon, para daw bumango bango ako! uhmmmmmm... :( love you
Thursday, June 05, 2008
ok so its Vee-yo! or Vayo! or Veeh-oh! whatever!
i rest my case on the following...
1. i admit... i have trouble pronouncing vaio. but i really thought it was pronounced as vayao as in bayaw, langaw, gawgaw. i have learned through extensive reading of my new laptop's manual, that VAIO actually stands for VIDEO and AUDIO INTEGRATED OPERATIONS. --- i bet my nani doesnt know that!
2. DSM IV-TR criteria for Attention Deficit Disorder: Symptoms of INATTENTION (hmmm... my attention span is 2 hours), HYPERACTIVITY (i certainly am... i admit) and IMPULSIVITY (not me!). i should have either 2 of the following criteria to be diagnosed as ADHD. hmmm...i have inattention and hyperactivity, so i am? really? an ADHD? whaaaaa!!!!
3. when i was a child, whenever i have a new toy, i figet about it. i would play with it until it runs out of batteries. i would even brake it down only to build it up again. so i guess my overly anticipation of this laptop has a tributary. need i say more hon?
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im glad my husband has learned to blog, and i can sense that he is getting used to it now that he is able to discuss not only me (his fav subject) but about his work. im so proud of my husband with the way he look for means of helping people. and im so proud to be associated with him as his partner ( at least kahit papano nababawasan ang sungay ko). it has been barely two weeks since we last met. thanks to this stupid review! hmp! i feel like this is the longest time of my life. all this preparation, all this studying, all this anticipation. i cant wait for it to end (of course with me passing the boards). i cant wait to see my husband this weekend and spend time with him.
if am an ADHD, my hon is the OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). mantakin mo ba namang bumili out of nowhere ng contacts na akala ko ittry ko lang, in the end he simply bought it. another was when he went to greenhills, he bought a watch for me that even though its an imitation still was worth so much money. minsan pa pag naisipan nyan, tatawag sa mcdo and oorder ng breakfast at 1AM only to find that its not available. whenever he make orders to his men, he would reiterate his concerns twice, thrice, many times, so kung ikaw boss mo sya, wla ka na magagawa kung di sumunod. hehe. ayaw nya ng makalat, ayaw nya ng mainit, ayaw nya ng mabahong driver (manong driver kaw ba yan?), ayaw nya ng balahurang boss (kilala mo na un hon), ayaw nya ng di kumakain ng gulay, ayaw nya ng may nakakalimutan, ayaw nya pag matagal ako sumagot ng phone, ayaw nya pag naghahang ung phone ko, mabilis mag alala pag di ako nakakapagtext agad.. ttwag agad. but the best of it all... ang hon ko, mahilig mag tantrum... parang mas bata pa sakin. haaaay. for that he is... i love him entirely.
i miss you!!!!
1. i admit... i have trouble pronouncing vaio. but i really thought it was pronounced as vayao as in bayaw, langaw, gawgaw. i have learned through extensive reading of my new laptop's manual, that VAIO actually stands for VIDEO and AUDIO INTEGRATED OPERATIONS. --- i bet my nani doesnt know that!
2. DSM IV-TR criteria for Attention Deficit Disorder: Symptoms of INATTENTION (hmmm... my attention span is 2 hours), HYPERACTIVITY (i certainly am... i admit) and IMPULSIVITY (not me!). i should have either 2 of the following criteria to be diagnosed as ADHD. hmmm...i have inattention and hyperactivity, so i am? really? an ADHD? whaaaaa!!!!
3. when i was a child, whenever i have a new toy, i figet about it. i would play with it until it runs out of batteries. i would even brake it down only to build it up again. so i guess my overly anticipation of this laptop has a tributary. need i say more hon?
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im glad my husband has learned to blog, and i can sense that he is getting used to it now that he is able to discuss not only me (his fav subject) but about his work. im so proud of my husband with the way he look for means of helping people. and im so proud to be associated with him as his partner ( at least kahit papano nababawasan ang sungay ko). it has been barely two weeks since we last met. thanks to this stupid review! hmp! i feel like this is the longest time of my life. all this preparation, all this studying, all this anticipation. i cant wait for it to end (of course with me passing the boards). i cant wait to see my husband this weekend and spend time with him.
if am an ADHD, my hon is the OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). mantakin mo ba namang bumili out of nowhere ng contacts na akala ko ittry ko lang, in the end he simply bought it. another was when he went to greenhills, he bought a watch for me that even though its an imitation still was worth so much money. minsan pa pag naisipan nyan, tatawag sa mcdo and oorder ng breakfast at 1AM only to find that its not available. whenever he make orders to his men, he would reiterate his concerns twice, thrice, many times, so kung ikaw boss mo sya, wla ka na magagawa kung di sumunod. hehe. ayaw nya ng makalat, ayaw nya ng mainit, ayaw nya ng mabahong driver (manong driver kaw ba yan?), ayaw nya ng balahurang boss (kilala mo na un hon), ayaw nya ng di kumakain ng gulay, ayaw nya ng may nakakalimutan, ayaw nya pag matagal ako sumagot ng phone, ayaw nya pag naghahang ung phone ko, mabilis mag alala pag di ako nakakapagtext agad.. ttwag agad. but the best of it all... ang hon ko, mahilig mag tantrum... parang mas bata pa sakin. haaaay. for that he is... i love him entirely.
i miss you!!!!
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