Tuesday, September 09, 2008

habang may buhay may problema!

my hon has been bickering about my qualms in life. how i got this trend of putting problems into simple things in life. i will enumerate the many problems that govern our lives right now.

PRESENT PROBLEMS:

1. weight loss
2. enormous e-mails from non-sense agents of my nani
3. dwindling money for my grocery
4. my landline's frequent crash down
5. my vaio's recovery disk (which i havent still created)
6. my nani's clinic manager who hasn't come back yet in new zealand
7. the lack of med tech to work at my nani's office
8. the slowly diminishing palatable "panghimagas" for my nani (nani seems to have tasted everything)
9. my nokia phone's frequent hang down
10. my nani's recurrent sinusitis, headache, and his "normal" BP of 170/100
11. motorbikes that always get to my nani's nerves
12. the lack of sleep my nani has
13. the pressures of work
14. the pressures of people submitting resume's to my nani (he wants to help everyone)
15. the pressure i give my nani all the time. hehehe

FUTURE PROBLEMS THAT NEEDS TO BE ADDRESSED NOW AS IN URGENT:

1. our new zealand migration (my nani as the principal, me as dependent)
2. work in new zealand (gusto ko kse pagpunta dun may work na... di daw ganun sbi ng nana)
3. my work here
4. my residency and the time it will steal from our relationship
5. our downpayment for our future condo unit
6. how to tell my family i have a boyfriend (i wish it would be as easy as wapi's)
7. the need to create a new organizational chart in my nani's work that would include me and everyone else below me
8. my monosynaptic moments
9. my slow thinking (papatunayan ko sa inyong lahat na di ako ganun! my brother is not a pig! i may be a pig! but i dont eat leftovers! walang tong kaugnayan gusto ko lang magdrama!)
10. i need to learn how to cook
11. i need to learn to eat whatever it is in the table
12. i need to learn how to drive right handed coz in new zealand sbi ng nana is that its everything in opposite
13. i need to learn how to make pastol the tupa, coz malamang while i study to get a job as a doctor in new zealand, magpapastol muna ako and driver ng nana.
14. the pressures involved in me being a recruiter for my nani. haaay!
15. kung matatagalan ba ng nani ko yung pagiging autistic ko! hahaha

i love you nani! im sure madami ka pa idadagdag dito! cge lang nana! dagdagan natin ang ating mga problema. tama ka habang may buhay may problema. mabuti nang nagmomoblema kaysa sa nakabaon sa lupa. etong mga problems na to ang magbibigay kapayapaan sa mundong ibabaw. ito ang magbabangon sa ating lahat. in all honesty, masarap mamboblema kung alam mo na may kasama ka sa problema, di ba nani? kaya asahan mo hon andito ako sa lahat ng mga problema mo at pinapangako ko na dadagdagan pa ang problem mo para di ka na magisip ng problema. hahaha

mahal na mahal kita hon! mwah! i miss you already!

my nani and the real world

Time flies really fast....parang kelan lang, intern pa lang ang nani ko. sinamahan ko mag medical mission (circumcision) sa pasay, dinadalhan ko ng food sa MCM during his non-sense intership duties, kinukulit ko mag aral for the boards....
Pero ngayon, eto na...hinahanapan ko ng trabaho as a clinic physician...toxic man ang nani, pero it amazes me so much to know and realize that finally, my nani is facing the real world of being a professional. There are times when he would still act like a baby ( he likes to play sally's spa and jojo's fashion show which are downloaded from the internet )but after the boards, Im starting to be dependent on him when I'm too tired to think of drugs that could alleviate and treat the symptoms and diseases of my regular text mates (executives needing medical advice and/or prescription). Buti na lang doctor din ang asawa ko kung hindi,wala akong pagpapasahan ng mga patients na pro-bono ang consultations sa kin! hehehe.

It helps to know that we share the same profession, the same passion to help others, and the same line of thinking when it comes to particular "issues" like disease management and interventions. It feels great to know that when I'm too lazy to recall dosages of certain medications, I just forward the text messages that I get to my nani! hehehehe..sya ang tinotoxic ko to text back with the complete prescription. I'm just savoring these times wherein my nani is still bumming around his house and waiting for the pre-residency program at OM. I know I can never make kulit again when he starts to go on duty na. Ayan ang totoong buhay. Life is not always a walk in the park. It's not always sleeping in your quarters and binge eating. It's not always daldalan. It's not always being pa tweetums. Hehehehe....I know and I believe that my nani can do whatever he wants and achieve his goals as long as he puts his heart and mind in it. I always tell my nani not to worry so much coz some of his friends are just taking things one step at a time. Naiinggit siya sa mga nagmoo moonlight.Gusto na daw niya kumita agad. Pero gusto din niya mag residency muna. Magulo ang isip nya nung isang gabi. Naiiyak pa. My nani tends to be a worrier. He has his tantrums about not knowing what to do with his life.He worries a lot about the future. "Habang may buhay, may problema"...yan ang motto ng nani ko ngayon...Whew! Siya ang naka acquire lahat ng traits ko these past months that we're together.

Ako? I never worried about his future. I always believed in my nani's capacity to be an achiever. Di ko nga akalain na makakapasa ng boards yan dahil sa lifestyle niyan. Puro lakwatsa. Puro daldal. Pero I know that my nani is a gifted child! Ok ang synapses ng neurons nyan kaya madaling makaretain ng information. May echolalia lang minsan. Matigas ang ulo. Mayabang pag kumanta. Pero alam ko may ibubuga talaga ang nani ko! Hehehehe. Peace!

Minsan lang medyo na de- derail ang utak. Pag medyo after 6 pm ayan na umaatake na ang anxiety nyan.Kung ano ano ng mga bagay ang inaalala. I always remind him to be more focused about his plans of going into residency. I gave him the option and opportunity to be one of our clinic physicians too.(In fact, one of his friend is already deployed in one of our accounts). He just doesn't know that there are a lot of opportunities when you are a doctor. Someone has to make him realize that. And I guess that's my role now. To help my nani to become more focused, and less myopic! hehehe...Baka need mo na ng new contact lens.Hahahaha!

We are already 7 months and still going strong. Parang ang dami na naming pinagdaanan but our love for each other is the binding force that keeps us together. He was here in my office last sunday to be oriented about company policies and the kilig factor that he is my nani and at the same time, one of my subordinates, never ceases to make me feel good. Hehehe. Sobrang likot nga lang dito sa office ko. Lahat kinalikot. Lahat gustong tignan, basahin. He even checked my books. He even tried to get some lube. hayyyy nakow!

Nevertheless, Im looking forward to his "treat" when he gets his first paycheck coz alam ko ang sweswelduhin ng nani ko eh pinaghirapan niya...bilang isang doctor. bilang aking nani who is now ready to face the real world...

Happy 7th monthsary nani ko! Love you with all my heart.

Sunday, September 07, 2008

nani's angels brought me here (nagkahernia ang nani after this)

angels.wma - nani

refresh mo to nani dali!

this the blog my nani has been waiting for. since his last post dated september 2, nani has been refreshing endlessly our blog site to see if i already blogged. he said before in his previous post wala ako gratification delay now yun pla sya pala yun. hahaha. so quits lang nani ha. :)

my nani and i spent the entire weekend in tagaytay as a post birthday and a pre monthsary celebration (sept 8). we stayed in DAP na ang sbi ng nana e may mumu daw, kaya napilitan ako na wag patayin yung tv while we sleep. minsan nagigicing ako at the middle of the night kse may naririnig ako. hilik lang pla ng nani. haaay! earlier that night we spent watching "the mummy 3" on my laptop. we had 7 bottles of beer, 3 nagaraya crackers, 2 fudgee bar (pang himagas ng nani)and boy bawang. manghang mangha ang nana kung pano ko kainin yung nagaraya, eat it by layers kse. hehe. i can just imagine the two of us living in one house cgro we'd just spend our entire day eating. kain ng kain ng kain! kaya naman when i checked, i weigh 150lbs, nana is just 170lbs. imagine, 5'5 ako and 150lbs! grabe! yoko na papapayat na ko! mukha na daw ako kettle sabi ng hon!

earlier this afternoon, after our tagaytay hideaway, we went to my nana's office to check up on some of his stuffs and to orient me and wapi for our job as retainer physician in thier company. kating kati na ko maglikot sa office but sabi ng hon e bawal daw. kaya ayun i just observe my nani while doing somethings in his desk and typing his minutes. im so amazed how my hon transforms into a corporate tycoon behind his desk. very focused while typing, his eyebrows would meet in the midline from time to time, gritting his teeth with very nonsense email he recieves and the way he would press the keyboards was with so much fury. ibang iba ang hon pag wala sa office. sobrang kulit, parang bata, gustong gusto nya pinauulit yung sinasabi nya sakin. he loves to eat chichiria. kahit anung pagkain na nakalagay sa makulay na lalagyan gusto nya. ika nga "himagas". from voice combo to fudgee bar, from marie to rebisco, and from knutella to pancakes, name it he loves it. buti nga ngayon medjo naglie low na sya sa hotdog (di na daw masarap sa kanya). thats why i wonder...kailan kaya di magiging masarap sa kanya ang pancake. haaay! ubos ang grocery namin cgro pag kme na magkasama sa bahay. tsk.

hon, thank you dun sa bracelet na gift mo ha. i really love it. thank you sa paghelp sa mga friends ko to have a job. i know its really too much, but yet you make it a point to reach out to us new doctors. thank you for loving my friends and my family all this time. im so proud of you "hon-boss"!

7 months na kme ng hon ko! doc lea asked me the other day if we fight, and im proud to say we havent fought or had misunderstandings for the past months. before i used to have a lot of tantrums of just about everything. i guess i have already outgrown them. i guess what one of the things i have come to understand in our relationship is the value of each other's lives. our individuality has not ceased to mingle with our growth as a couple. right now i can say i understand clearly the pressures my nani's job gives to him and he in return understands the little qualms i have with my live as someone who is just starting to venture into the real world. i am proud to say he has never left me, he lifts me up when im down and carries me when i just cant seem to walk. he gives me confidence. he believes in me when i dont with myself. im not just lucky to have him but im proud i have his heart. i love you nani. i cannot think of anyone better for me to spend my entire life but with you. you're my betterhalf. i love you so much. no words could ever describe how i feel for you. but hopefully i can make you feel how much i trully love you.

7 months and there are 7 things i got to know about my hon:

1. mahirap sya gicingin sa umaga. but amazingly he never gets late in the office.
2. he hates it when i make likot in bed. gusto nya kung ano pwesto namin pagnatulog yun na yun until morning. hehehe
3. he loves to eat "himagas", pagkumain sya ng matamis gusto nya maalat after (hindi ako ung maalat na tinutukoy...matamis ako)
4. when he climbs inside the car the very first thing he would do is to check on me. kakalikutin nya damit ko, aayusin nya kwelyo ko, lahat! lahat lahat! laruan ba ako nani?
5. i notice he seldom says cheesy stuffs about me or about our relationship. but when he does, its super sweet. he's a man of few words when it comes to US. which i find very attractive.
6. he makes scribbles of his classmate's vagina covered with webcobs on his papers during his medskul days. aside from that, my nani writes so legibly.

and

7. he values me. he loves me so much and takes care of me always. unmindful of his busy workload, he never misses to call or text me. he introduces me to his family and to his workmates which i find very endearing. it shows how proud he is of me.

i love you so much my honey! kahit na i-refresh mo pa tong page na to a hundred times... di ka nananaginip kse nagblog nga ako. pwede ka na matulog ng mahimbig. hehehe. i miss you already. i miss your kulit. lapit na tau magsama hon. mahal na mahal kita sobra sobra. mwah mwah mwah!

happy 7th monthsary my honey!

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

happy birthday to my nani small but terrible (literally and figuratively!)

After my nani passed the boards, catch up mode kami to spend quality time together…dami ng nangyari since he passed….

1)Gimik/celebration with Doc Leah
- We first watched that bakya movie of Sarah and John Lloyd. Saya. Kami lang ang tao sa cinema. Tawa lang kami ng tawa ng nani. Pero it was a memorable exprience coz it's the first movie that we enjoyed. Most of the movies that we watched before, PALPAK. Predictable. Boring.
Later that evening, we decided to call Doc Leah, my nani's ENT resident friend. Sobrang cool kasama. No hang ups. We ate isaw, barbecue, tenga ng baboy muna(so unhealthy considering that we are all doctors and we should promote healthy eating!) before we got a room at Music 21. There we sang our hearts out. Kain. Inom. :-)Leah had to rest na coz she's on duty the following day so she had to go home early. Starbucks muna kami ng nani. Tagal naming hindi uminom ng fav namin na caramel machiato. Whew. Kakamiss talaga. The following day, punta kami ng Makati Cinema Square to buy pirated DVDs coz my Nani was deprived of such privilege during the reviews. He needs to catch up. Dami naming nabili na DVDs.

2) Weekday dinner
- 3 days after, dinner naman kami ng nani sa isang Japanese burger house sa Makati. My nani got his ratings in the boards and he processed his papers for the oathtaking. Im the one and only lucky person who gets to be with my nani on September 14 during the oathtaking. Yehey! Thanks nani. Ako ang bwisitang pandangal mo! His mom was not surprised at all that I'll be the one to attend the significant event in my nani's life. Perhaps, nakuha ko si Mama sa mga pasalubong from different places that ive been, like the dried mangoes, danggit, ground coffee, (from tacloban, ormoc, cebu, davao, pampanga, etc.etc)hehehehe. Now I know the shortest way to my mom - in-law's heart. Pasalubongs from different provinces in the Philippines.Harharhar!

3) Birthday celebration of my nani at his house in Paranaque
- My nani decided to have a dinner and booze party last Saturday with his doctor friends and pre-med buddies. Met his mom. Made the "MANO PO" gesture and Doc Leah followed. Hahahahahaha.... Nagulat yata si Mama sa ginawa namin. I also met his best friend Margaux who's very kikay and accomodating and makwento and the moment my nani introduced me to her, she gave me a smack on the face! :-) Sobrang cool and sincere and I know how much she loves my nani as a friend. Glad to finally meet her in person last saturday. walang katapusang tawanan lang kami ni Doc Leah and kwentuhan with my nani's friends. Gave some pieces of advice to the new doctors about residency and pursuing corporate medicine eventually. Hayyy... Parang ang tanda ko na... Drank beer and tequila. Ate the cake that I brought for my nani hahahahaha....Sarap ng food nila. Galing magluto ni Mama. My nana was the one who prepared the inihaw na liempo based on the recipe that I dictated through text. Galing. Sarapppppppp! :-)Pwede na mag -asawa ang nani ko talaga. Listened to Wapi's kwento about opening up his true sexuality to his parents. Touching. And I never knew that Wapi is such a composed person. Poised. Relaxed. The way he cried and the manner that he wiped his tears during the confession to his dad made us laugh our hearts out! Brought Doc Leah home. Enjoy ako sobra sa advanced bday celebration ng nani!

4)Interview of my Nana at Ospital ng Maynila, OB-Gyne Department
- It was just this afternoon that my nani had his first "job" interview. He is applying for residency na! waaaaaaaahhh! Kabado ako for my nana since I woke up this morning. It's his 26th birthday tomorrow and I was kinda worried that if ever he messes up during the interview, iiyak na naman yan. At mag eemote. At birthday pa niya tomorrow. Baka sabihin na naman niyan na he got a bad gift for his birthday if ever boldyakin siya ng mga OB consultants sa OM. hehehe. My nani is really bent on pursuing that lochia smelling, meat cutting, names calling, messy but prospectively lucrative field of obstetrics and gynecology! whew! No one can stop him. No one can influence him to take up derma, radio or pathology. No one can hinder his dream of becoming a bungangero OB in the future! Ive been texting him the whole afternoon kung kumusta ba interview , ano na nangyari, etc etc. Im glad that when we got to talk, it turned out well. He nailed it! He talked about his pro-life advocacy, his singing talents and his IT skills in creating web sites. I hope that these things could be of aid in his acceptance at OM!:-) I know deep inside that my nani can always surpass every challenge that comes his way like the internship, the boards and lately, the interview with OB consultants. Na prapraning lang ako minsan dahil baby pa talaga nani ko (physically and mentally).
He may still look like a little boy with his cute little hands and feet and his big tummy. He still acts like a toddler at times when he makes lambing. He has his tantrums like a child pag sabay sabay namin siyang inaasar ni Doc Leah. He may be restless sometimes like an ADHD patient. He may cry incessantly like a mentally retarded person. All of these traits can be translated into immaturity and not being ready to face the real world after school. BUT WAIT!!!!( should be pronounced like in TV HOME SHOPPING pag may extra freebies or discounts na pinamimigay pag bumili ka ng treadmill!) kahit parang retarded ang nani ko, I am always amazed by:
a) his great talent in singing kahit na medyo mayabang;
b) his defensive driving skills and galing sa pag park ng patalikod;
c) his commendable writing skills ( please read his blogs);
d) his being conceited ( he’s gwapo daw ang talented!);
e) his intellect;
f) his sense of humor;
g) his being a very opinionated person most of the time but still listens to what I have to say;
h) his determination to succeed in his chosen field;
i) his great interpersonal skills (that’s why he has billions of friends);
j) and finally, his being a very loving partner to me………. (ito ang ultimate!!!!!)
These are just but a handful of reasons why I tagged my nani as small (like a little boy) but terrible. Watch out, world. My nani is here to rock your world. Or rather, nandito na ang nani ko para ma pwing kayo sa mata. Sabi nga nila, mas nakaka-pwing ang maliit na butil ng buhangin kesa batong malaki. Yan ang nani ko.


Happy 26th birthday nani!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you very much!!!!!!!!!!!!


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