Just another monday

Yesterday was valentine's day. Its been a long time since i blogged. I was even contemplating into deleting this blog since i felt it would be useless to write anymore. Having second thoughts about it made me realize that my blog has gone along way. It has been 8years of blogging for me (much longer than any relationships that i had). Reading through my blog over and over again brought back memories (bad and good) and it would be a shame if i delete it. This blog has been my alter ego. Ergo i decided to write again... This time i'd aptly call it 'just another monday'

What's with the new name?

I was driving a week ago going to work, as i was listening to RX's morning rush top ten about bitter quotes for vday, their top bitter quote then was 'it maybe valentine's day to you.... But for me it's just another monday'
A big 'ouch' for me... Started to think that while i despise mondays (signals the start of my dreaded work week) , i should embrace it to make it my friend (being my best optimistic me). With my work anyway, my week doesnt end nor begin on a monday, it's my longing to have a normal week like any other that's all. So a blog in tribute to mondays would be aptly necessary.

What also triggered me to write again was that i found a cool app for iphone that would let me blog anywhere and anytime connectinh it to blogger site. I thought it was just what i needed. From now on ill be blogging every monday night, and there would be no reason for me not to.

I'll start my monday night blogging next week. This is just a preview. Next week ill write about my monday vday.

Ill find a way to change the look of my blog... I do need a makeover anyhow.

for once

i almost forgot how to blog...

you changed my very special love in one moment in time

haaaay! ang sarap sarap n holy week ko. vacation to the max. its the first holy week where i spent it going out of town. before i used to just stay at home, magyayamot pag ipagddrive sina mama, manunuod ng mga tv marathons. this time it was different.

nana and iae already planned for this vacation to come true. we want to spend the entire holy week with friends in tagaytay. muntik na nga kme di matuloy kse sa pagyayaya ko e onting tao lang ang pumunta, ang gusto na ng nana e mag dumaguete na lang kme. buti na lang d natuloy kundi ubos ang pera namin sa sobrang mahal ng ticket ng eroplano. anyway, lea, ygan, me and nana went to tagaytay. sobrang trafic. grabe! ngayon ko lang narealize na madami pa lang hudyo sa pilipinas. hahaha. it was a budget vacation coz my nana know someone in tagaytay who allowed us to use their house. ganda ng bahay. fully furnised. kompleto except sa unan, which ako ang pinagdala ng nana. bilin pa nya sakin e palitan ang mga punda ko kse mabaho daw a unan ko amoy unggoy. kala mo naman sya e gorilla nga! tse! anyway, so nagdala ako ng apat na malalaking unan, syempre bago ang punda, pinabanguhan ko pa para di mapintasan ng nana ko. haha. infairness nagdala naman ang nana ng malong n kumot namin.

ang saya, kse parang bahay bahayan. namili kme ng mag lulutuin,ngpaihaw at kung anu anu pa. the following day sumunod sina margaux and her family with choi choi my inaanak. nag swimming kme sa umamatikabong lamig ng tagaytay waters. pili ako tinuturuan ng nana mag dive, m freestyle ng maayos, mag buttefly, breaststroke,backstroke! aside sa fact na dating athlete ang nana sa swimming e frustrated teacher yan. lahat ata ng pwedeng ituro e ituturo. magaling pa yan sa analogy pag nagkakamali ka at di mo nasusunod ang mga tinuturo nya. pero magaling syang magturo,e makes me realize na hindi pala ng lahat ng alam ko e tama. pero, hindi rin naman ako nakukuntento sa ganun. syempre, mhirap pa rin ako pasunurin di b nana? hahaha. sumakit ang katawan ko sa pagswiswinig kaya nun gabing yon e talagang ginicing ko ang nana ko para kuha ako ng gamot. baket ba? sya kaya ang may dahila kung bakit namumulikat ang mga braso ko! sa pelikula kse may double ako pag eksenang nalulunod at kailangang lumangoy. tse! mahirap pala lumangoy! direk cut!

ang sarap ng buhay pala pag kain tulog kain tulog ka lang. napancin ko saming dalawang mag asawa e, almusal namin sa isat isa ang panlalait, sa gabi himagas namin ang tawagin ang isat isa n unggoy at pansinin ang kamay, kuko. ang nana ugali nyang amuyin ang buhok ko. mabaho daw pero sige pa rin sya sa amoy. ang sarap sarap ng feeling pag tatawagin ako ng nana ko kse di sya makatulog pag di ako kayakap. sobrang mahal na mahal ko asawa ko. ang swerte swerte tlga nya sakin. hahaha.

during the whole time i saw how my husband would be in our own house.

- mahilig syang mag iiikot. lalakad ng lalakad, mangangalikot, maghahanap ng gagawin. bottom line di sya napapakali sa isang lugar except sa kama. kama lang ang katapat ng nana para matahimik ang mga pa nya.

- maaburido. gusto nya plantsado ang lahat lalung lalu na sa pag huhugas ko ng pinggan. kesyod ko daw binabanlawan ng maigi, di ko daw sinasabon ng maayos. haaaay!

- himagas. hinding hindi pwede to mawala pag tapos kumain ng nana. lahat titirahin. nun umuwi ako sa bahay kanina at pagtapos ko kumain ng dinner, parang nawalan ako ng ganang kumain ng himagas kong blueberry cheesecake na bili namin ng nana. patunay na ang nana ko lang ang may kayang pakainin ako ng labis sa 3 beses sa isang araw.

- chef. galing ng nana ko magluto. nagmadali syang gumicing ng maaga para daw makapagluto sya ng adobo. ang sarap ng adobo ng nana. ako ang tagatikim nya. hehehe. haaay! galing galing ng nana clap clap clap!

- neat. sobrang OC ang nana sa bahay. ayaw nya ng may nakakalat. lahat ililigpit. kya naman tuwang tuwa ako kse my liligpit na ng mga kalat ko. i love you hon

- peaceful. being with my nana, i felt so at peace. yung tipong wala ako iintndihin except ang alagaan sya. he has this power in making things so simple. with him i feel like the world is still. i knew now that i cant really wait for us to be togther. im getting excited actualy.

sobrang enjoy ako s vacation ko. i even feel fulfilled kse nakakapag contibute ako sa gastos ng nana. haaay. ewan ko ba kung bakit mahal na mahal ko yan asawa ko. everyday even if minsan lang kme mag sama and phone lang minsan ang communication namin e kuntento na ako. i cant ask for anything more.

sana madami pang vacation ang pagsaluan naming mag asawa. nxt time sasakay na kme ng eroplane! (kse di pa ko nakakasakay ng eroplane e) hehehe. love you nana!

happy 1 year and 4 monhs and counting....

i love you with all my heart!

Lucky 13

today marked me and my nana's 13th monthsary. fact: 1 year and 1 month na kme ng asawa ko. i dont know the reason why people in a relationship try to count numbers but all i know is that it helps us realize the value of being together. not that time becomes an essence but rewinding the past and fastforwarding to the present makes me feel proud of what we have accomplished.

di pa rin ako sanay umalis ang nana ko for bussiness trips. thursday, after a successful grand rounds, my nana told me hed be leaving for CDO. kahit na super happy ako coz i surpassed my grand round, i felt sad kse di ko makakausap ang nana ko and that hed be super busy. aatake na naman ang pagka baliw ko. im a worry freak kse. when hes out of the city, i always check up on him. kung kumain na ba sya, kung naligo, kung natulog ng maayos, kung kumpleto mga damit nya. haaay. ganito pala feeling ng isang ina pag nasa jamboree ang anak. hahahaha. anyway, during the time my nana is at CDO, whenver i have the time, i call him just to check up on him. cgro nasasakal na ang asawa ko. huhuhu. sorry honey. what's good about nana is eventhough dami nya miting, even at the middle of it, magtetext yan ng mga sweet nothings and minsan makikipag biruan pa. hehehehe. gawain ng nana na sobrang sweet e tatawagan nya ako at the middle of his speech para mapakingggan ko lang yung galit nya and inis sa mga tao. hahaha. feel ko tuloy andun ako nakikinig sa kanya, at tungo lang ng tungo kse takot ako mag ask ng questions bka kse barahin ako. hahaha. galing ng nana in his field. sobra. kaya naman another oppurtunity was given to him at the company and another position was offered to him by another company. haaay, idol ko tlga ang nana ko. sobrang proud ako. i know its hard to juggle personal, family and work all at the same time but he is doing a good job at it. may extra challenge pa nga sa kanya kse andito ako. hahaha. sama! bobong! make love! ayaw! love you hon!

today uuwi na nana ko. may bobong man o wala im glad hed be coming home. i pray he have a safe trip. i still wish for that time to come when i could accompany my nana on his bussiness trips, sunduin sya sa airport, ihatid. mga ganong bagay. sbi ng nana pag consultant na daw ako,e pag nangyari yun sya na ang sasama sakin kse di na sya magwowork. stay na lang sya sa bahay, kakain ng chichiria, nunuod ng jampong commercial everyday, kakanta sa karaoke paulit ulit na gold, magaalaga ng aso, maglilinis ng bahay, maglalaba, magluluto. hahaha.

last night in my duty, though i had 29 ER calls, we were watching sara and john lloyd's movie: you changed my life in a moment. haaay... sobrang relate ako. at dahil sa ganun di ko tinapos ang movie. nakapikit ako pero rinig na rinig ko ang mga tagline na panalo. whaaaa! kinikilig ako at the same time naalala ko nana ko. like john lloyd in the movie my nana is a strict, straightforward, workaholic man, but when it comes to me sobrang nagiging bata. minsan nga ako pa nagiging parang mas matanda. hehe. ako naman parang si sarah (o say mo!) hahaha. pa cute, pa sweet, laging tawag and text ang bf, even at work. pag nag minor OR ako, pinapasagot ko sa mga student nurse text ng nana kse yoko ng di sya narereplyan in one way or another. di ko na alam kung anu kinatapusan ng movie but im sure happy ending yun kse kumita sa takilya. and like the movie, kita din ang love story naming mag asawa sa mga friends namin. hahahaha. hay naku. haba tlga ng hair ko. hahahaha.

i can feel wed go a long way together, me and nana. sobrang mahal na mahal ko yang asawa ko. pinagtyagaan nya ko ng isang taon. mahirap para sa kanya ang pigilin ang sobrang pagmamahal nya skin para lang di lumaki ang ulo ko. hahaha. joke nana. basta all i know is that, i love him with all my heart. this blog has been all about him and his love but i never get tired writing about him. love has never been tiring.

i love you honey! happy 13th monthsary! mwah!

our post anniversary celebration

before the start of this month i already had a lot of trouble thinking how i would be able to spend time with my nana coz its Feb 8 that we first been committed with each other. sobrang bilang ako ng bilang sa kalendaryo kung kailan tatama ang araw na un. well it did fell on a weekend which unfortunately fell on my duty sked. so what my nana did was we went out the day after that. and for the first time i was able to bribe him to see ruins. that place inside BF where i have been constantly insisting wed go coz there are bazaars, dvds, karaoke cds, and tons and tons of great restaurants to eat. he was amazed by the place kse tama daw ung sbi ng officemate nya na may sariling buhay ang mga tao sa BF. we went sa tiannge and there he bought cds for papa and for him as well, he even bought a useless beer shot thingy na sbi nya gagamitin nya pag nag inuman sila sa office. so yun nga nakita ko yun sa isa sa mga picture nila na nagiinuman sila. haaaay ang nana! feel ko ibinida pa nya yun sa mga friends nya and officemates. hahahaha

then the week after that came into chaos sa hospital. i got busy with the surgical mission brought in my PAGES (philippine ameran group of educators and surgeons). i did 2 palate and 1 lip surgery (i was the surgeon) and then 4 assists on palate and 2 assists on lip surgery. over all i beleive it went fine. its still different from the things i used to do. being a surgeon and assist was entirely different. the mission also taught me that there are people in this industry (medical) or perhaps in this country that exudes tremendous amount of egocentrism. i guess with great stature in life comes great ego. sobrang yayabang ng mga tao. right there and then i promised myself i wouldnt be like them.

the mission week ended saturday which was the day i was looking forward to since i made a date with my nana for our post-anniversary celebration. i didnt finish my hosting stint at Barbara's intramuros and made an allibi to kit that i have a family dinner to attend to just to be with my nana who has been already waiting for me in qc. it felt like forever waiting for that day to come and only 30 minutes for me to drive from intramuros to qc. before i left for qc, i stayed a few minutes in the car to write in the card i bought for my nana yesterday it has been a long time since i gave him a card kse. hehe.

i actually dont know what to give my nana for a gift. i knew he hates sanuk sandals but i still gve him one. the slim type sandals which to my suprise he loved and fitted just right. it looks good on him epecially on walking shorts. haaay. di naman ako masyado in love sa nana ko di ba? i also bought him a tall jar full of sweets, chocolates. naging bata na naman ang nana. imagine him nilalatag yung mga candies sa kama, pinaghiwahiwalay nya yung magkakapareho. then i asked bakit, sabi nya para daw alam nya kung ano ang kakainin nya. hahahaha. talk about being a kid at heart. my nana gave me a bracelet which i really love kse nasisira na yung rubber side ng eksenadora kong bracelet na bigay din nya. hehehe. then we went to sleep. pinilit ko tlagang di mauna matulog, sya una nagyayaya matulog. kunwari nun una dilat na dilat pa ko nanunuod ng natgeo. tapus nung sinabi ng nana "tulog na tau" laking pasasalamat ko sa dios sa pag dinig nya ng panalangin ko. hahahaha. pagkasabi nya nun bigla ako pikit at yakap. tapus ang usapan. hahahaha.

the next morning we went out for lunch and watched a movie... confessions of a shopaholic. which again to our dismay couldnt be anymore boring than 10,000 BC. alam ko pag ang nana nabobobore sa pinapanuod, lagi nya napapansin ang mga di dapat pansinin... like my hands. para daw uu aa ang hands ko. di kaya. tapus kakalikutin nya yung bracelet na bigay nya, yung sapatos na bigay ko. haaay! ina ng awa! ewan ko ba. lage kme palpak mag asawa sa panunuod ng sine. after the movie nag pa massage kme ng nana ko. sobrang sarap. na relak ako ng sobra! then we had dinner where we saw the real betty la fea. i was insisting i drive him home. again pinagbigyan ako ng nana. he let me drive him all the way to their house. i was able to see where my nana goes home. ang daming sasakyan ng nana. ang yaman yaman! hahahaha. sbi ko nga sa nana, alam ko na ngayon kung san ako pupunta pag naglayas ako, at alam ko na rin kung saan ako susugod pag nag away kme. hahaha. humanda ka nana! hahaha

grabe, sobrang ang dami namin nagawa ng nana the whole day. i never get tired with my nana around. san man kme magpunta oks sakin. i guess thats a sign of a good relationship, yung kahit anu gawin nyo, pag usapan nyo you both know how to make fun with each other. one year has passed and we still look like first time lovers. im so proud of this relationship. im so proud of my husband. his care and love for me is endless and unconditional. i know time and work has been our obstacle but it never made us quit. understanding of each other is crucial. i know i can trust my nana and he can trust me. ang swerte swerte nga nya sakin e. sobra! hahaha. basta hon i promise to be with you for the rest of my life. my love is only yours. i love you so much. happy 1st anniversary!!!!! thank you for your love!

Best Birthday with my Nana and Friends

I’m still "high" because of what Nana did to make this birthday of mine very special. Ive been telling him na wag na siya mag regalo coz his mere presence in my life is God’s greatest gift to me. Kaso ang kulit niya talaga! Tsk! He handed over his gifts to me a few minutes after we checked in sa Manila. Mukhang naawa na ang nana sa lumang bag ko kaya pinalitan na niya ng Girbaud na black leather bag...mas mukhang pang executive daw according to Nana! hahahaha...maganda pa naman yung Banana Rep ko na bag ha! Pati wallet ko na siya rin ang nagbigay nung 3rd monthsary namin, pinalitan din niya ng bago kasi masyado na daw gamit yung dati..hehehehe....Thanks sa mga gifts mo nana. Thanks for being sensitive at maawain sa asawa mo pag naluluma na mga gamit ko!:-)

Next, natulog muna kami ng hapon. I know he's very tired kasi from duty pa siya at nag OR pa sila nung morning. Ayaw pa niya mag lunch kasi lagpas na ng 12noon. Siguro mga 2 hours din kami natulog. I told him na mag dinner kami sa Friday's coz I was craving for Mocha Mud Pie but he kept on texting and texting a lot people. Tunog ng tunog ang celphone ng nana! Kakairita! Mag KTV daw kami kasi alam niya hilig ko yun pero wala ako sa mood coz I was also drunk the previous night dahil sa office celebration naman namin ng mga January birthday celebrants. Sabi ko siya na lang kung gusto niya. Nagmamakaawa talaga ang nana! Alam mo yung nagpapaawa ng mukha? Hahaha! Di naman nakakaawa. Pero sabi ko sige na nga. So finally, I gave in to his request na sa Macapagal highway kami mag KTV at dinner na din. Panay pa ang tantrum ko sa kotse kung bakit dun pa, bakit kakanta pa, bakit sa matraffic pa na lugar, blah blah blah…Natatawa lang ang maldito kong asawa…. Ayun pala, to my surprise, nandun pala ang mga friends naming!!!!!!!!!.I was so happy to see Paula, Wapi, Pia and Tim...ininvite pala lahat ng nana ng friends kaso silang 4 lang ang nakarating but it really made my pre birthday celebration extra special! Nagpareserve na pala sila sa KTV bar na yun a few days back and it was really touching coz I know he exerted a lot of effort dahil toxic talaga siya sa hospital lately. Thanks talaga nana. sobrang kakataba ng puso and ang sarap pala magkaasawa ng kahit na maldito at mayabang, eh mahilig sa surprises at talagang pinagplaplanuhan ang lahat! Sabi ko kasi sa nana, ayoko ng surprises. I find it corny. Pero iba pala kapag ang nana ko ang dumiskarte. Medyo nagkakaron ng konting excitement! Konti lang ha! Hihihihi! Kasi yayabang na naman lalo yan! 

We really had a great time sa kakainom, kakakain at kakakanta lalo na ang pinaka mabili sa lahat ng mga song numbers nung gabing yun…ang kantang HIRAM ni Pia! May nginig pa sa dulo at papikit pikit pa. Sinundan pa ng Saving All My Love for You….talaga nga naman oh!…first time ko rin nameet si Tim and since halos magka age kami, can relate kami sa mga songs nung 80s.hahahaha…we had a great time talaga. Lahat sila ang galing kumanta. Si Wapi bumabanat ng ALONE…si Paula MYMP ang boses…Si Pia, ZSA ZSA PADILLA si Tim, FREDDIE MERCURY ng QUEEN…And ang nana, as usual, LAHAT KINAYA! Hahahaha…ang saya talaga sobra..thanks sa inyong lahat kung mabasa nyo man ang blog na ito….nag coffee muna kami nila wapi at pia and nana before umuwi and as usual, daming kwento na nakakatuwa….sobrang enjoy and sobrang nakakataba ng puso…the past months that I have been meeting and going out with my nana’s friends, they have turned out to be my close friends too coz I know how good hearted they all are. Mga cool kasama, sensible, walang hang ups, and sobrang sincere in expressing their gratitude coz now, they are introduced and now a part of my corporate medicine practice. I will always be here for them, no matter what….kahit anong racket, ibibigay ko sa kanilang lahat!:-)

Afterwards, I told Nana medyo nagugutom ako ulit. Alam ko wala sa prinsipyo ng nana na kumain ng midnight snack but since its my birthday, napapayag ko ang little boy ko! Hahahaaha….so kain muna ulit kami sa shakeys…busog sobra! Grabe. Gluttony na daw yung ginagawa ko per my nana’s declaration. E sa nagugutom pa ko eh…sabi ko nga sa nana, mahirap matulog ng gutom! Hahahaha….Pag kasama ko asawa ko, di ako makapag diet.Lagi ako nagugutom!

Balik sa hotel and then kwentuhan till umaga….May problema lang…pag yumakap na ang nana, wala na yan…maghihilik na yan in 2 minutes….parang bata pa talaga. Ang dali niya gumawa ng ikaantok at ikatutulog nya! Tsk! I tried to wake him up coz I saw on Australian channel ang isang cranial and maxillofacial modification ng isang pedia patient na may microcephaly…ang galing! Kaso dineadma ng nana kaya sorry siya, di niya nakita kung pano na modify yung bone structure nung bata!hehehe.

Early brunch lang kami then we headed to lea’s place…may kukunin daw na book ang nana coz mag aaral daw siya regarding otitis media. Sabi ko, “Ampota. Ang dami naming pwedeng hanapan ng journals and articles about otitis media!”. Nagtataka ako kung bakit pupunta pa sya sa Quezon City and pwede namang magkita sila ni lea sa hospital on Monday! Sometimes my nana gets really irrational. Na hello ako sa diskarte nya na yun. Tsk! So finally, nandun na kami kina Lea na place. Pilit na naman ako pinababa ng nana. Nahihiya ako kasi baka nandun ang mga kapatid ni Lea hehehe…so sa parking palang ng house nila lea, she gave the xmas gifts that she and Igan (her bf) bought for us. When I finally entered their house, I was surprised to see a maltese puppy na may ribbon sa neck…I’m a dog lover and my nana knows that. I was then introduced to Lea’s sisters. Then one of them kidded that the puppy is mine daw. “Huh??”was my reaction. WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE (kasi sumama agad sa kin yung puppy named JJ, and to be polite enough to ride on to that joke na sa kin na yung puppy dahil hindi talaga ko naniniwala), I carried the puppy and placed it on my lap….sobrang sweet nung doggie talaga! My nana, lea and her sisters kept on telling me na akin daw yung dog….birthday gift daw sa kin! I kept asking “hindi nga?????hindi nga talaga??? Akin na to????” medyo namumula na ko sa nararamdaman kong hiya at excitement at tuwa! Abot tenga daw ngiti ko sabi ng nana! .di ako makapaniwala…kala ko joke time pero i was really happy kasi finally, may kalaro na yung aso kong unti unti ng tumatanda! Hahahaha….hanggang nung nakasakay na kami sa kotse ng nana, di ako makapaniwala na I have a dog for my birthday!ang saya talaga!Mahal na mahal talaga ko ng nana! Talaga daw pinagpilitan ng nana na sa kin na lang ibigay ni lea yung puppy kesa sa isang consultant nila hahahaha! Thanks sa inyong dalawa!thanks sa sisters mo lea! So pag uwi namin sa house, lahat ng tao tuwang tuwa kay JJ. Para kaming may new baby sa house. Lahat niyakap, kinarga, and pinag shopping namin agad ng dog food, shampoo, soap, powder, etc.etc. It really made our day so meaningful. Lahat gusto hingiin si JJ, ang bago kong aso! Hehehe…no way…galing sa nana ko yan ( and kay lea!) kaya magtyaga na lang sila sa mga guard dogs nila na hindi mo pwede laruin at kargahin harharhar….:-)

I hope I was able to write down the sequence of events that took place last weekend. I never knew that my Nana is such a very detail oriented person. May pagka obsessive compulsive yan alam ko. He plans things ahead. Madaling ma frustrate if things don’t go as planned. Mahilig mamroblema. But to sum it all up, now I know that my nana’s expression of his love is through actions that produce desirable end results that are worth remembering for the rest my life. No matter how expensive and valuable a gift is, it will be worthless if it’s not given with the emotion that represents it. Close to perfection ang asawa ko dito! Galing galing! Clap clap clap! I know that my nana spent a considerable amount of time and money to conceptualize and accomplish his well coordinated plans to make my birthday a special event. Words are not enough to express the happiness that he has brought into my life for the past 11 months that we’ve been together. Thanks for making me happy…Even if I didn’t get a new bag, or a wallet, or a KTV party or a new puppy today, everyday is like my birthday because I have YOU in my life…. Love you with all my heart.

Happy 1st Anniversary too!

thoughs of 11th monthsary

ang galeng galeng magsulat ng nana ng blog. this afternoon, he texted me na tinatamad daw sya magwork kaya nagbblog lang sya. syempre alam ko na na puro ako na naman ang laman ng blog nya kse patay na patay yan sakin. hahaha. di ba nana?

our relationship is nearing a year now. proud na proud ang nana kse sya ang pinakamatagal na relationship ko and sya lang ang nagtyaga sakin. hahaha. i can say that those months we shared together can be called "ideal". ideal in the sense that though we do have a few misundertandings here and there, there's nothing big to the point that we see each other breaking loose. ideal for the fact that we give equal understanding of our own lives like work, family, friends. i havent seen him complain na we dont see each other often or make love often (hehehe)... kse puro ako ang nagcocomplain. hahahaha. hindi naman. the bottom line is we make it a point that this relationship we have be built with trust, confidence and patience with each other. i cannot see myself with someone else than my nana. sbi nga ng nana dati that we should thank the bad memories we have from our previous relationships coz whatever it is that happened made its way for us to be together. tama nga naman ang nana (lage sya tama... may tama sa utak, may tama sa tyan, may tama sa paa).

i dont usually plan for the future, my friends know that. im not the type who gears towards this and towards that. im a man who just lives with a single goal for every year. but being with my nana, i have come to make plans for the future itself. yes ive been saving money for our future house, the appliances, the gadgets we would have. my nana is an impulsive buyer kaya naman todo ipon ako kahit wala pa ko sweldo. i always day dream how it would feel great to treat my nana, to actually be the one to pay the bills in the resto, or give him gifts or even give him allowance. sa totoo lang masarap alagaan ang nana. sya yung tipo ng taong pag binigyan mo ng kahit anu e tlagang naapreciate nya. yung tipong kakalikutin nya ng kakalikutin ang mga bigay ko, pagmamasdan, isusukat sukat, yung mga ganun. kaya masarap regaluhan ang nana, di man mamahalin mga regalo ko sa kanya but the fact that i see him smile and hold it is already a gift to me as well.

sa blog ng nana, he itemized the reasons why he love me, teka ako nga din:

1. mahilig yan sa pabango. he has this habit of making me amuy his neck and papahula sakin yung gamit nya. then pag tinanong mo kung nagpabango ba sya bago kme nagkita, super deny yan at sasabihing pabango ko pa to nung umalis ako ng bahay. asus! if i know tlgang nagpapogi sya for me.

2. lage nya sinasabi mayabang ako sa pagkanta, e samantalang sya kaya yun. lage yan magyayaya ng karaoke, tapus pag pinakanta mo yung medjo mahiyain pa yan. tapus mag eenter yan ng kanta... "Gold". umanganga na lang mga friends ko sa galeng ng nana. tapus susundan na nya yung line up nya ng martin nievera, malalaglag naman ang mga panti ng mga friends ko, then in between kakanta yan ng pop songs, na sasabihin ng mga friends ko, "ang galing galing" sabay palakpak, then ang huli nyang mga kanta yung mga kanta nya for me ( sorry nana medjo finocus ko na naman ang spotlight sakin ha). gawain pa nyan pagkumakanta ako yung ituturo nya yung daliri nya sa ceiling para abutin ko yung nota. E DI KO NGA MAABOT E! nag sirko sirko na ko nana! tsk! may mga kataga pa yang "ang taas ng boses mo, pupunta ka ba ng langit?", "gusto mo ng upuan patung ka para maabot mo". sinisisi ko ang mama sa lahat ng to, kse kung pinag voice lesson nya ko nung summer workshop imbes na nagpainting lesson ako sa nayong pilipino e di sana naabot ko ang nota. wla din naman ako napala sa painting, di pala sya magagamit sa music21. tsk!

3. my nana has a thousand fetish... ngipin (ayaw nyan ng magilagid or may sira or tabitabinge), paa (gusto nya mga paa ng mga lola kaya gusto nya paa ko), ilong (gusto nya patangusin ilong nya yung parang pinocchio), at marami pang iba. sobrang linis nyan sa katawan. in fact pag nag pupu yan ang tagal! ready na ko sa kama sya di pa! hahahaha.

4. lagi ko kinukulet yang nana sa makipag holding hands sakin pagnaglalakad, which usually leads to pag akbay. hehehe nakakatuwa kse inaagaw ko mga kamay nya. but pag sa resto or sa sina, pasimple yan hahawakan mga kamay ko, pipisil pisilin pa. hahaha love you nana.

5. ayaw na ayaw nya yung nagdedeklara! like nung namatay daw yung aso nya sbi ng katulong nya "patay na!" or pag sinasabi kong "gwapo ako". minsan napapasingal na lang yan kse alam nya wala na sya magawa kse dineklara ko na na gwapo ako. hahaha.

6. pag sinabi mo sa kanyang wag na kumain, aba e kakain pa rin yan, sa aming dalawa mas matigas ang ulo ng nana ko kse tignan mo, kakasabi ko lang wag mag metformin, ayung bumili ng 3 box galing japan. but mahal na mahal ko pa rin ang nana. kahit na nawala ang leeg nya nung christmas season e pogi pogi pa rin. di ba ang sbi nila, love is love when you see someone no matter how they changed they're still the most beautiful people. kahit tumaba ulet ang nana patay na patay pa rin ako sa smile nyan, sa bango ng pisngi nyan. yung face nya pagnagigicing sa umaga na alam mong bagot na bagot sa hindi nya pagtulog ng maayos katabi ako, is one face i have always admired. love you nana

7. sobrang mahal ko ang nana khit na nagsisigawan silang pamilya sa grocery dahil lang sa hotdog, or tinapay, or delata, or gulay. icip ko nga ang saya cgro pagkasama ko family nya. he always tell me soon i would meet his dad and mom, i get excited but freigtened kse panu kung di nila ako gusto or mas worse panu kung sobrang magustuhan nila ako. haaaay!

the hospital kept me away throughout the holiday season, but my nana stayed with me all through those times. i kept telling him, that i might lose my head without him. sa work he is my stress buster. i always anticipate going home para lang makausap sya sa phone, e wat more kung magksama na kme sa bahay.

mahal na mahal ko yang asawa ko for so many reasons i cannot enumerate. 11 months is just but a number, whats important is that in those months my nana has been loving me and taking care of me like no one has ever did before. thats why i continue to be faithful, loving and caring for him too. he is my strength. he is my life.

happy 11th monthsary nana ko!!!!! advance happy birthday!!!! yey!!!!! blow out blow out blow out blow out blow job blow out blow out blow job blow out blow out blow out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11th monthsary thoughts

2 days na lang 11 months na kami ng nana... ang bilis ng panahon...i was looking at our pictures during our first months. kitang kita ko ang evolution niya from the slim and petit intern to the slowly "ballooning" medical board exam reviewee and to the bloated/ascitic pre-res and resident of OM-ENT HNS. Lumaki na ang tyan at mukha ng nana ko in less than a year. For the past 11 months, daming pagbabagong nangyari both physically and emotionally...physically, we've both grown bigger (sigh!) and emotionally, i am outrightly claiming na we've both matured as individuals and as partners (tama ba nana? hehehe) ... we are more considerate, more sensitive with each other's feelings, and of course, more committed to be together for a long long long period of time.we are slowly realizing our plans kahit na medyo toxic ang work pareho. In fact, dami na naipon ng nana...may 200 dollars na siya sa wallet niya para pambili namin ng aircon, playstation, lazy boy, lcd tv, wow magic sing, foot spa, family computer, atari, game boy, mga doll collection niya. susunod na daw ang pang down namin sa condo. tapos yung pambili namin ng rest house na malapit sa beach, tapos yung farm kung saan mag aalaga kami ng mga pato, tupa, manok, baka, baboy, leon, tigre,sirena,serpentina, dinosaurs.

For the past 11 months, I realized that the criteria of being in love have some variations from person to person experiencing this "heavenly" feeling. Mine are as follows:


I am in love with my nana because:


1. kahit na makulit at may pagkamayabang yan, i don't find it offensive and irritating coz I just laugh my heart out whenever he claims na mas magaling siya kumanta by singing in high pitched/keyed songs. Pag nagsimula akong kumanta in my own voice range, magyayabang siya ng mas mataas na pitch to prove na mas mataas ang boses niya kahit na hindi na niya maabot ang mga kanta at kailanganin niyang tumuntong sa bangko para maabot ang high notes! Para bang gustong umabot sa langit ang pagkanta niya. Kung ibang tao yung nagyayabang ng gaya ng sa nana, puta, sinampal o kaya winalk-out-an ko na;


2. ayokong ayoko ng malikot sa kama pag tulog pa ako. Ang nana ko, pag nagising na yan, ayan na, umaatake ang pagka hyper...likot ng kamay, paa, daldal, ikot sa kama, bukas ng tv, lipat ng lipat ng channel. lahat yan natitiis ko dahil mahal ko nana. kung ibang tao yan, sipa na siya sa kama;


3. pag kasama ko siya, wala kaming ginawa kungdi mag tawanan at mag asaran ng mga kapintasan namin. hindi ako napipikon. hindi rin siya napipikon. kahit anong pang aasar ang gawin ko, lumalaban lang siya ng pang aasar hanggang sa huli, titigil na ko kasi talo ako...like for instance yung wala siyang gilagid. sabi niya mas ok na daw yun kesa sa mga LG...yung mga taong Labas ang Gilagid. Natawa na lang ako. Sapul si Maritoni Fernandez dun;


4. ive learned to like some songs na medyo na we-weirdohan ako dati coz of my nana. when he belts out such songs, kala mo talaga ang galing galing niya at may papikit pikit pa yan like when he sings the jingle of tiki tiki for kids ("tiki tiki lang for meeeeeeeehhhh"parang kambing yung dulo dahil nilalagyan niya ng vibrato);


5. pag tumatatawag siya sa landline, ang unang greeting nyan is "nana!" in such a unique tone na masarap pakinggan. sa dalas ba naman ng tawag niya sa kin pag may chance siya gumamit ng landline whether sa hospital or sa bahay nila, kung ibang tao yung gaagwa niyan, malamang pinaputol ko na landline namin sa bahay. tawagin ba naman ako ng tagalog ng "PUS". hehehehe...since ang nana ko ang gumagawa ng ganito at mahal ko siya, its music to my ears;

6. pag magpapaalam ako na pupunta ko sa grocery, sa palengke, etc. etc. walang ginawa yan kungdi mag text ng "SAMA KO!"...laging gustong bumuntot. eh hindi naman pwede kasi may duty siya. but despite of his kakulitan na parang si mama niya na laging gustong nakasunod sa papa niya, he is the only person in this world that i dont get bored of being with constantly. kahit na sandaling panahon lang kami magkasama minsan coz of our works' toxicities, it' always worth the while. we always talk about funny stuffs, our own flaws, life's experiences, chldhood memories, future plans,etc. etc. We both love to listen to each other's kwentos kahit na minsan, madaling araw na at sinisikatan na kami ng haring araw. kwento pa rin ng kwento ng kwento ng kwento. mahal ko nga siguro talaga ang nana kasi kahit na paulit ulit na minsan ang kwento nya, naaaliw pa rin ako pag siya ang nag dedemo ( like nung bata silang magkakapatid, pag nakakarinig sila ng tugtog na mabilis sa radyo, magsasapatos sila lahat at magsasayaw na tila ba wala ng bukas).

Daming pang instances that I can classify as proofs of being in love with nana but this blogspot will not suffice for all those "evidences" hehehe... I guess love nga ito. Sabi nga ni Ai Ai sa Tanging Ina Nyong Lahat, "THIS IS REALLY IS IT!" Wrong grammar man siya, na emphasize naman ang point nya! Nakanaaaahhh!!!

Love you nana. Happy 11th monthsary!

Best Christmas

Best Christmas

Yesssss!!!!!!!!! After the long holidays and the stress that the Christmas rush (toxicity of buying gifts for my friends and family and my NANA) has brought into my system, magblolog na ko ulit! Yehey!

Nasa perpetual duty ( 8 days sa hospital ng walang uwian) ang nana ko and presently savoring his midazolam induced sleep after 4 days of continuously attending to ER patients kaya may time ako magsulat dahil walang text from him and walang surprise calls to release his stress…sleep tight nana…

This is the best Christmas of my life. I have my family with me, a good job, real friends, new friends ( care of nana like margaux, ara, paula, wapi, pia, lea, jason, igan, amee, jim, frank, nina, at madami pang iba!) and of course, my nana. The past years have just been so-so because I don’t have the complete “menu” (as stated above) in order for me to brand my past Christmases as “great” holiday seasons. I have a lot of things to thank God for and I never fail to take some quiet moments every now and then to thank HIM for everything that He has given me, my nana, and my family for the past year.

I got tons of gifts from friends, colleagues (puro alak naknampocha!) and from my nana too….In fact, pati mga pamangkin ko merong gift from him…Thank you sa watches na colorful para sa mga pamangkin ko…. Thanks sa madaming madaming chocolates and Danish cookies and acca kappa cologne, sa olay moisturizer, sa Armani bracelet, sa angel and devil dicks (rated PG to!) , sa madaming toothpaste na sensodyne at astring osol lozenges, sa mga toys and clothes for kuya jing’s kids, sa prep H for my dad, and of course, sa pagmamahal! Nakanaaaaaahhhhh! God knows how thankful I am coz I have my nana with me for he is very supportive of the simple acts of charity that we have been extending to the less privileged people that we personally know. I’m glad that he has the heart to care for them too. Swerte ko talaga sa nana ko. Kahit gano ka toxic yan sa hospital, he really finds time to be of assistance to anyone who needs help. Kahit nga ako, tinoxic ko nana nung magdodonate kami ng slightly used clothes sa mga nangangailangan. Isang sabi ko lang na “ sige na nana, mag ayos ka na ng closet mo and lahat ng mga damit na ayaw mo na, donate na natin, pretty please?”….and he actually did kahit na puyat and from duty yan! He never fails to amaze me…The past 11 months (almost) that we’re together, I’m always in awe to learn more about his true self. May mga patakaran pala siya sa buhay na nakakatuwa (like dapat by 6:30 nag dinner na, dapat mag yawn na siya ng 8:30 pm para by 9:00 pm tulog na siya, dapat hindi na kumakain beyond 7 pm, etc etc) and may mga patakaran din siyang mahilig mamroblema sa mga bagay bagay kahit hindi pa nangyayari. Hahahaha….He’s still a baby in many aspects but when it comes to assigning tasks and responsibilities, he’s damn good in handling them. Makulit yan, sumasagot ng pabalang, hindi nakikinig minsan, opinionated, mayabang, pero sobrang responsible and he never leaves challenging tasks without resolutions. Madaming sasabihin yan sa mga pinapagawa ko sa kanya pero at the end of the day, susunod din.  The more I get to know him, the more I love my nana talaga. These could be the reasons why he is surviving his residency now. And I know that these traits will be of great aid for him to go through the program at OM.

We are doing a lot of sacrifices now ( we refrained from out of town/country trips kahit na mahaba ang bakasyon, no drinking sprees coz baka hindi makapag duty ang nana, etc. ) due to his perpetual duty but I know that in due time, we will be reaping the fruits of his labors. Lagi ko ngang sinasabi sa nana na konting tiis lang. Lahat naman ng pinaghihirapan eh may bunga. Sabi ko nga sa kanya in jest na “ pagbutihan mo ang residency program mo para pag consultant ka na, mapag aral natin ang mga bata sa matinong iskwelahan at hindi lang sa mababang paaralan ng santa henobeba”.Hehehe….Just trying to make him smile amidst his toxicity at work.

It feels great to know that I have someone in my life now that I constantly think of making happy. Parang regalo talaga siya sa buhay ko….Before Christmas, he kept on asking me kung ano gusto ko na gift. Sabi ko nga, siya pa lang, gift na from God. Ayaw maniwala. Kaya nga pag magkasama kami, I have this habit of treating him like a gift. Lahat kasi ng regalo na natatanggap ko, I take time to examine them closely. Para akong bata na paulit ulit tinitignan ito. Inaappreciate. Ganun din ako sa nana ko…..I always make kalikot. Sa teeth nya kung ano dapat pastahan at ipabunot dahil hobby niya ang magpatanggal ng molars, sa buhok niya kung ano dapat ipagupit, sa mukha niya kung ano dapat i-shave, sa ilong niya na gusto niya ipa rhino kahit di naman kailangan, sa kamay niya na unti unti ng tumataba ang fingers, sa paa niya na ang liit at ang cute tignan, sa mga kuko niya na parang mga buhay na tao bawat isa, at sa marami pang bagay at sa lahat lahat sa kanya….. Wala ako nito nung mga nakaraang Pasko kaya I consider this season as the best one that I ever had. Mahal ko talaga nana ko maging ano ka man, este sino ka man! (Ginawa talagang bagay na regalo literally waaaaaahhh!)

Thank you for being my nana… thank you for the gift of love and care…...Love ko nana ko with all my heart!

my nana's christmas wish

i just arrived home from our xmas getaway togther with my nana. dami ko dala, gifts for my nana, for his nephews and niece, toys for kuya jing's son (adopted child na namin ng nana), chocolates for my nana who always have a sweet tooth for anything, danish cookies (last resort ko to kse wala pala fita biscuits sa duty free).

my nana bought me 10 gifts, a polo from g2000, kenneth cole signature perfume, accacapa cologne, a trodat with ink, toronto cap, vintage wine for my parents, caps and shirts for my male residents, and a toy for margaux's son, but the best of it all is the OMEGA seadiver's watch in rose gold. grabe sobrang dami ng gift ng nana ko. nahiya tuloy ako. kse yung gift ko sa kanya accacapa din na cologne. hahaha. bawi na lang ako sa bday mo nana. hehehe. sorry paula ang onti ng bigay sakin ng asawa ko. tsk! hahahaha



this is the 1st xmas where i recieved tons of gifts. the other day while me and my family were going home from MOA, my dad commented "ang pasko para na lang tlga sa mga bata". i sighed and just kept quiet. i realized now that there's no reason to equate xmas with kids coz i felt like a kid again opening gifts from my nana. i was elated. i knew nana spent a lot na naman for me though he kept on telling me to be thrifty coz we will be moving out soon to our own home. thank you nana.

above all else the best gift i have ever recieved was my nana himself. he continues to be the best husband anyone could have. his care and his utmost sincerity with his love always makes me proud that i finally met someone like him. a lot of people say im too lucky to have him. i say, he's too lucky he got me. hahaha. and i declare that fact. di ba nana? hahaha. i could not ask for anything more this christmas. i have everything i need. i have a life full of love, a relationship built on trust, fidelity and understanding, and a husband that is priceless. thank you nana for eveything. saying i love you, thanking you would not account to match the love you have been giving me, the only thing that i can assure you of is that im always here for you, for all ways and always. i love you so dearly. i miss you already.

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holiday happy days

i have always had a grudge with christmas and the holiday season. why? since childhood i barely recall one happy christmas. i was sickly back then and i dont know for such reason why sickness always come on christmas season. i even have pictures where all of my family were in nice dresses and me in my pajamas coz im bedridden. sigh. its either i was sick or my parents werent home for christmas. medicine life came and i was even more exhausted with christmas. last year during my internship, due to my depression, i aggreed to take all eve duties, christmas eve and new years eve. it was an eye opener for me. it was hard going through work during those times but i have managed to enjoyed it though. i remember, last year's new years eve, i was alone in the male quarters at the 11th floor, watching all the fire works and smoking through our window, wishing that a stray bullet would come and hit me right then. bad thought i know but honestly i was hoping it would happen just to know how many people would come to my rescue. hehehe. i was too morbid back then.

this year is a whole lot different. 2008 had been good to me. its the year i got my liscence, the year i finally decided how my life would go as a physician and the year were i feel so complete coz of my nana. this is the first christmas i would be spending with someone i love. i was bargaining with nina to give me the christmas duty so that i could have more time with my nana but i guess her need was more than i wanted. right now im enjoying my vacation. a week long vacation may seem to be too little time to spend with family, friends and nana. i hope i could extend more.

nana and i are on our 10th month, going 11th, on febuary we'll turn a year. so fast. i still remember all the first times. the chat, the call, the meet up. i never thought we'd end up together and stay this long. honestly, i was dying to be his bf eversince i met him. di ko lang pinahalata ng masyado na patay na patay ako sa kanya. hahaha. many people say ang swerte ko sa asawa ko. maalaga, sweet, mapagmahal. he never left me all throughout my first months in residency. he would always make time to see me at work, bring me foods and just recently sponsored our door prizes for our christmas party which to every people's delight was a sold out. i know i have much to thank God for giving him to me. his pure heart who always extend to people in need always makes me proud. i have never met someone who's heart is always geared towards other people's need that sometimes he sacrifices himself to a certaing degree. i wonder how he can put up with all of this, that's why i stay away from pressuring him. i always try to give him support and unconditional love which i hope reaches him even in the littlest measurement. its right when people say that with having a relationship every priorities you have will change. now, i always make it a point that my nana know where i am, who im with and what im doing, my decisions are without his opinion. i value my nana so much that i consider him my life.

this morning, my nana got troubled when their househelp screamed that his dog was dead. imagine him crying while brushing his teeth (eksena sa teleserye ng evagina fondle) tapus lumabas sya ng nakatapis, na pinagtinginan sya ng mga tao na kumakagat kagat pa ng labi. di pala dead si doggy, labas lang ang dila at mukhang nag hypogly lang, so my nana got relieved. i guess dun nakuha ng nana ang galing nya sa pag alaga sakin (aso ako e), at ang galing ko sa pagmamahal ng amo ko. hahaha. di naman ako lumalaban sau nana di ba? tsk! love ko yang nana ko.

this christmas, i dont have much to wish but for my nana's happiness, that God would always bring him blessings, in his work and to his family. that God always bring him good health. i love him so much that i cannot afford to lose him. thank you nana for always sharing your life with me, for keeping up with me all through these times, may it be hard time or those happy times. thank you for loving my family and friends. thank you for being part of my life. thank you for making me feel special this christmas and in everyday. i don't want to lose you. i cant wait to be with you in one house. i promise to take care of you and to love you for more years to come.

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Say You'll Never Go

How can I make it through the day
Without you
You have been so much a part of me
(and if you'll go)
I'll never know what to do
How can I carry on my way
The memories
When all that is left is the pain of my history
Why should I live my life today

I cannot live out on my own
And just forget the love you've always shown
And accept the fate of my condition
Please don't ever go
For I cannot live my life alone

CHORUS:
Say you'll never go
Say you'll never go out my way
Say you'll never go
For we can still go on
And make it through
Just say you'll never go
Say you'll never go away

How can I make my dreams come true
Without you
You were the one who gave love to me
(And don't you know)
You are my fantasy

I cannot live out on my own
(I can't do anything at all)
And just forget the love you've always shown
And accept the fate of my condition

Please don't ever go
For I cannot live my life alone

CHORUS:
Say you'll never go
Say you'll never go out my way
Say you'll never go
For we can still go on
And make it through
Just say you'll never go
Say you'll never go away

(Instrumental)

CHORUS:
Say you'll never go
Say you'll never go out my way
Say you'll never go
For we can still go on
And make it through
Just say you'll never go
Say you'll never go away

what would life has to offer

earlier this morning i joined a small medical mission in paranaque. i really didnt want to go since i know how toxic a medical mission is and the fact that it is raining. i was already envisioning myself soaking wet mixed in perspiration and rain. i didnt hurry myself getting dressed, coz i know for a fact that the people i will be with would be coming in late more than i am. so i arrived at the place a good 45 minutes earlier and as expected my collegues were late. thus giving me time to eat at 711. i miss their hotdog sandwich. it was my staple food when i was an intern at MCM. the medical mission started at around 9:30, we finished by 11:00, and i had a total 20 patients seen. funny coz one of my patients commented that i look 25. for the first time, someone looked at me being younger than my age (my average age was 28-30). she told me that i look happy-go-lucky, someone without a care in the world and masarap kausap. going through my morning was painful, i was relived she had such a comment about me, i just realized magaling pa pala ako magtago ng emotions ko. hehehehe.

when i got back, after a few exhachange of texts from by nana, he told me to get some sleep. which i did. a dream woke me up. in my dream, i was given a sunday duty by my chief resident for not informing her that i would be going directly to the medical mission, and that my husband got frustrated since we were bound to go somewhere else. i was crying and crying. and texted my nani about my dream.

lately i feel that ang dami kong hang-ups sa buhay. i cannot blame anyone else but me, which makes me more frustrated lately. minsan gusto kong pukpukin ang ulo ko sa kung anu anung pumapasok sa utak ko. i have so many things that i would want to do but i cant. or i have the time to spend but its limited. doc pia said the other day, that as i grow older, as i proceed with my residency, i should be wiser enough to take all the pressures. she said in residency there will come a time that in the middle of it all youd question yourself of your worth. the bad thing is im just starting and im already questioning myself. maybe im too busy hurrying things up that i cant wait for things to finish.

the other day, my nani and i had a talk about life and work. i myself also have my share of pressure moments. im pressured about work. everyday, at work, at this early point, i feel that i have to do better, that i have to prove more to my seniors and consultants. one duty, doc aimee, doc lea, doc jim and i were chatting, and laughing, making jokes, when one specific joke was put on me: "kaya kita tinanggap kse wala na ko mapili". i knew it was a joke and i was made to beleive that it was. but i also knew it was half true when i entered the department, we were 4 pre-res that applied. slowly the others disintegrated and i was the only one left standing. and nina came and i had a batchmate. there are times when i feel like i dont belong. especially when the consultants are there. but my nani kept telling me that i didnt entered training to make friends. he is right. but of course, there are still moments that i feel outcasted, that all my moves are being monitored, my language limited.

im glad my husband has always been there for me. without him i guess im left broken. last friday he came to visit me at work and brought me foods and "grocery showcase" hehehe. i really appreciate him. i know he feels that im too hard to please but even without the visits, even if only our communication is through text and phone conversation, i want to let him know that i am contented. though there are tantrums i make coz we havent spent time together longer as i would like us to be, but all those were just lambing. i dont mean in any way pressure my nani with that. actually, i am the one more pressured coz my nani has been doing all the efforts and i feel that i dont. i want to reciprocate all his deeds and all the things he gives but i feel i can do only so much. i want to pick him up from work, drive him home (i dont mind having not enough sleep driving, ive done that before and im willing to do the same with him), bring him food for lunch, take him out to dinner were i would be paying, giving him all that he needs. im praying to God every night that i make my husband happy. i await that day that i would be of service to my husband everyday once we get our own place. when i told doc pia about our plans to live together she said mahirap yun. i asked why. she said "pag nagsama kau di mo na mabibili mga gusto mo kse most of your salary will be used to keep the two of you stable". i just said im willing to do that coz in the first place di naman ako maluhong tao. i dont even buy clothes often and only when i needed it. right now, im trying to be thrifty. my nani gave me money and im bound to save it. though little i still want to share. wierd nga lang kse parang babalik lang sa kanya yung money. hehehe.

as i grow older, im slowly realizing that life isnt rountinary, that it is hard. i now beleive margaux and tim. there were the ones who matured more earlier than i am. i guess bata pa nga tlaga ako. madami pa ko dapat intindihin sa buhay. but i will not get my age be a hinder to my growth. im just hoping that throughout my growth i still have my nani beside me. wala nang dapat pang makinabang and makasaksi sa growth ko as a person but my asawa. coz all my life is all about him.

i love you hon.

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i was rummaging my friendster messages and i came across my nani's msgs way back february and march:
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you look so damn great sa pics mo....swerte ko talaga sa asawa ko...gwapo na, matalino pa, sweet pa, sexy pa at napaka mapagmahal....love you so much my honey, my asawa! - 3/13/08
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Hi Hon. I just finished reading your blog entries from feb to september 2007. It's 12:53am in my laptop clock. Just want you to know that the more I learn about the things that youve been through for the past year of your life, the deeper i get into this emotion called LOVE. Im sorry if I tend to be bratty when it comes to issues regarding your past bf. I guess im just being insecure coz I know you spent a hell lot more time with him compared to the days that we have been "dating" hehehe....One thing is for sure.. I want to make more memories with you.I mean BETTER memories.And I want to make it a point that what we have right now will be our last relationship.Sana ito na hinahanap natin pareho. I will be here to support you in all your endeavors. I know youll make it through in the board exams coz God knows our plans. He knows our desire to be of help to those who are in need, like Kuya Jing. Thank you for being so compassionate to those who are not as lucky as we are...
If i have to live my life all over again, I'd still choose to meet someone like you.And would definitely choose to love you over and over again...
I love you with all my heart.

hon mo - 3/1/08
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Im still awake...thanks for forwarding the lyrics of YOU And I...
Just want you to know that i'm still in high heavens coz I never thought that Ill find someone in the most unusual room. hehehe...thanks for being you....wala na ko hahanapin pa dahil nasa yo na lahat ng hinahanap ko like looks, intellect, sense of humor, compassionate, affectionate ( and of course, the ultimate, the virginity, waaaaaahhh)..hope you wont change....
i love you with all my heart.

honey mo - 2/10/08

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pls view, comment and vote for PGH, OMMC and Madocs ENT HNS video for the PSO annual video making contest.

link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTr9s1HnrRY

Scratch papers, understanding and memories

Yesterday, around 3:30 in the afternoon, I decided to bring the results of my/nani's urine drug test at OM. He told me that it's the last day of submission coz that's the only thing that he lacks and its one of the numerous requirements that he should provide in order to finalize his employment as an ENT resident at OM. Pressure ang pag provide ko ng specimen coz my nani is too tamad to urinate and give it to us for processing. Ako ba naman ang pinagsubmit ng specimen and was tasked to label my urine as his pee! tsk tsk tsk....medical ethics honey ko!hmp.

Anyway, my visit was a big surprise for him coz I told him that my messenger will be the one to bring the results sa "dispensaryo" ( the way they call the out patient department at OM) ng ENT. When i got there, he was sitted beside Doc Jim and was just making pa-cute coz they're seeing OPD patients. His eyes lit up when he saw me and realized that it wasnt my messenger who brought the drug test results! Bihira ko na lang makita ang nani ko na ngumingiti ng ganung katamis! Those are the moments na hindi mabibili ng kahit anong pera sa mundo! hehehehe....Together with the lab results, I also brought a lot of SCRATCH PAPERS to be used by my nani as prescription pads when they prescribe meds to patients at the OM Dispensario. The reason behind this is that, the last time he went to my office, he saw some scratch papers and asked if he can have those coz wala daw sila presription pads sa OM! Naawa naman ako and handed all of my scratch papers to my nani. So a day before I visited him sa OM, I collected all the scratch papers that I can find inside my office and gave them all to my nani.This also made him really happy! Ang babaw nampota! hahahahaha! Perhaps, this is the trait that I like most about him. He's still a child at heart. Kahit gano kasimpleng bagay, sobrang appreciative yan. Kahit dalhan ko lang ng chicharon sa duty nya. Kahit KFC lang. Kahit ano. Masaya na siya dun. Mababaw ang kaligayahan. Although minsan mayabang pag kumanta. Or minsan matigas ang ulo. Sumasagot pag pinagalitan. Pag sinabihan kong sasampalin ko siya dahil pasaway, sasagot ng "subukan mo, sisipain naman kita sa balls"...O di ba...ang bait...parang bata talaga...ayaw patalo! hehehe....

These could be the very reasons why we click together. I love to eat junk foods (the way kids do), and my nani acts and thinks like a toddler in most instances. Hindi applicable sa min yung principle ng iba na opposites attract each other. Sa amin, we are of the same polarities but we are so attached to each other! What fascinates me the most is that mentally retarded as he may seem to be, surprisingly, he is a very responsible individual. He knows his priorities in life. He is very driven in terms of career growth. And he knows how to balance everything. He never takes our relationship for granted. He never fails to text or call me kahit na nasa ER yan at nagsesermon sa patients nya. Kahit nag ra-rounds sa ward. I may not be that vocal about it but I really admire him for that. Sometimes, I still think of him as a baby sometimes (coz mukha talagang totoy!) who shouldn't be allowed to go far or be out of his guardian's sight coz he might get lost or mess things up, but, I have this "yabang" inside my head that kahit na mukhang batang paslit yang honey ko, doctor na yan at sobrang determined yan to be succesful in his chosen field.

It’s been quite a while since we last hugged each other to sleep. I perfectly understand how toxic he is for the past weeks and I’m still giving him the chance to adjust to his new life as an ENT resident, physically, intellectually and emotionally. Mas ok naman ang ENT compared sa OB coz hindi talaga pang may bf ang OB-GYNE! Hihihihi…Nevertheless, we always make it a point to see each other as often as we can, kahit sandaling bisita lang sa ospital ok na sa min yun. Basta makita lang namin ang isat isa. Now I know that the key to a harmonious relationship is UNDERSTANDING. Without it, I don’t know how we could survive the past 9 months (going on 10 months soon, yehey!) that we’re together.

We both may have our tantrums at times when we get frustrated with our careers. And considering that we’re both type A personalities (dominant, results oriented and high risk for HPN and CAD), we can still balance each other’s strengths and weaknesses. When one is feeling weak, the stronger one gets to uplift the spirit of the other back to its normal state.

There were countless times that my nani asked me about the certainty that I feel for this relationship. Many times I answered him that I can’t imagine myself being with someone else than him when I grow old. At this point in our relationship, I already have thousands of good MEMORIES with my nani. I hope to have more of those. However, it led me to think….hmmnnnn…..memories are created and recalled when you part ways with someone who has made a difference in your life. Well, guess I wouldn’t be needing memories with my nani because I will be sharing my life with him…. Real soon… and for a significant period of time… Love you my nani…advance happy 10th monthsary.


My Days are brighter than morning air
Evergreen pine and autumn blue
But all my days are twice as fair
If I could share my life with you


And time weaves ribbons of memories
To sweeten life when youth is through
But I would need no memories there
If I could share my life with you……


“With You” from the Broadway musical “PIPPIN”

my husband, my life

i have been doing my duties at ENT-HNS department since october, so far im enjoying it. like OB, it is skill intensive. im now adept to indirect laryngoscopy, ear suctioning, foreign body removal and suturing wounds, making diagnosis and what nots. but aside from the skill i have gained in almost two months of rigorous training, i have learned that in residency training i have to be mature enough to handle the pressures. i used to be too trivial with all the issues concerning the department. how my seniors handle us or how i see them handling themselves. there are a lot of times that i get to be reprimanded, taught because of my lack of dicisive instict but nevertheless i learned. i havent cried yet. im sure i would in the future when all things becomes unbearable... i guess all will come to pass.

though ENT-HNS training has put me into the advantage of having time with my family and husband, still the longing of being together with them is limited.

my husband has been there all through those times. he would drop by the hospital on my duty and bring me foods or just to linger at the ER. i miss those times when i was an intern where i was free to go about my life. but i guess that cant stay forever. i have to grow. thats why i appreciate my husband in times like these. the fact that i cant go out as often as i would like to, he makes it a point that he gives his own time for my cause. quite selfish of me at times when i wanted even more. but as days go by and as i feed on the fact that my husband will never leave me gives me the courage and hope that soon we will be together in one house and spend each waking day together.

sometimes during my duties, i think of quitting. i have questioned myself why am i doing this whole thing. why cant i just go spend my entire life with my husband. my nani kept on telling me that its for our future. countless times my husband would tell me how burned out he is with work, how pressures in his family, work and in me sometimes makes him want to quit as well. we havent spent long hours together for almost 3 weeks now, the last that we were together was a week ago which was a good 2 hours landian, but realizing my husband's need, i thought that my training would soon be of use to him. i have always imagine, that id be doing all the work for him once i get my own practice. i guess thats the only solace i could give for my husband for all the effort he has put in his own life. but that would entail a lot of hard days and nights to get through.

since day 1 of residency, i have always thought of my husband as my driving force. i always look forward for that day that we would be together. unlike any other MD's who's main goal was to be good at their training, i for one think of being a good husband to my nani. well i guess, being good at my training is also a requirement but everything that i do, i always attribute to him. i dont know if thats a selfish move, but thats what keeps me going. i never felt like this to anyone. i would be even willing to quit when he says so. i love my husband so much that i have made him my life. and i can feel that he too is the same. thats why i dont want to fail him.

funny coz we havent fought or argued these past few months, for that reasone we even came to play that we do argue and fight. he would text me: "ang mga anak natin wala nang makain dahil puro ka patiente" or, "sbi mo lalabas mo kme magaama at pupunta tau sa parke at mamamasyal tau pero hindi lagi ka na lang nagoopera" or, we even argue who would take our future kids to skul. those texts always put a smile on me. he is so kulet. and i know that that is his way of relieving his tension from work. hes a kid at heart. he can live with pancake, lemonsquare cheese cake and voice combo as diet. one time he texted me how his tummy is increasing in size, i told him dont worry coz i myself cant see my pototoy on standing. hahaha. im so lucky to have my nani tlaga.

sometimes i wish i lived in the same pace as my husband. but as what he tells me countless times, that everything that has happened in the past, made its way for us to be together. im still in the query of not knowing how to make my husband happy, but i know from the fact that my very existence in his life is as important and as rewarding as my love for him.

i love you honey! thanks you for being my husband.

Nine months with my Nani

In 2 weeks' time, me and my nani will celebrate our 9th month together. Ang bilis ng panahon...it seems like yesterday when we first met, when we first sang together, when we first had our dinner date, our first fight, etc.etc....but we're proud to say that for the past 9 months of our lives, our relationship is going stronger than ever. We have learned to appreciate quality time better than quantity time. And talking about quality time,even if we just steal some time from our works during office hours ( like last tuesday, in the middle of my meeting, he texted me and said, "daan lang ako sandali sa office mo ha to give you your dessert na cake") , we managed to have fun together....kahit sandali lang na time, just seeing each other, making kulitan, laugh our hearts out,eat a quick lunch, are some moments which make our relationship more concrete...I know how busy my nani is. Yan ang buhay ng residente. Toxic. Been there, done that.

I visited him during one of his ER duties...nasa aquarium pala sila sa OM.Yung lugar ng mga ENT is inside a glass room... isolated from the rest of the departments...and may sarili silang window type aircon, hehehe(peace nani!) Tapos yung mga kaso,may mga trivial and just out of the stupidity ng mga magulang sa mga anak nila...Like the case of a 9 year old girl, who accidentaly swallowed a one peso coin while playing with it using her mouth...Yung tatay na nagdala sa kanya sa ER,buong tapang na humahangos at bitbit ang anak na nagsuka na and worried na worried coz nung pinalo daw niya sa pwet yung anak niya, tsaka nalulon nung bata yung PISO! hahahahaha.....i tried to be serious when i was conducting my "own" history of the present illness of that patient but i can't stop and laughed when me and my nani were able to sneak out of the ER! We laughed and laughed til our tummies ached....ang standing joke nga namin ng nani is that, dapat tinanong namin yung tatay kung sa tingin ba niya sa ER ng OM ay isang malaking KARNABAL (with hand gestures) dahil ang pagkakaalam namin ng nani is that, sa KARNABAL lang ginagawa ang paglulon ng pera at espada! Harharharhar!!!!!!!! those are the simple things that make our relationship stronger. TOXIC but fun...The good thing is, we both understand perfectly the situation that we have engaged ourselves into. I always tell my nani that residency is not forever...and he should not worry about me that i might feel na im " being taken for granted" coz we spend less time together coz of his training. Sabi ko nga sa kanya, pag hindi na ko nakakaintindi ng situation nya, dun siya mag-alala...coz i might be more demanding if that happens. hehehe....so far, i do understand this stage in his life and i will always be here to support him. Kahit na ilang sirkero pa ang dumating sa ER ng OM!

For the past 9 months, may mga stress relievers kami ng nana ko....We make fun of some words that are usually mispronounced by everybody...I acquired the habit of making my nani pronounce some of them and repeat them twice or thrice until we fart laughing...stress busters namin to and it they continuously add up to our thousands of "personal jokes and terms of endearment", that only me and nani can understand.minsan sa text, minsan sa phone, we happen to connect and end up smiling in the midst of our toxic jobs when we re-visit these words and pronounce them the NANI AND NANA WAY! they are as follows:

1. Blek beg - itim na bag
2. Blek berd - yung sinusulatan ng chalk...pwede ring itim na ibon
3. Propeysor - yung nagtuturo sa tin sa college
4. Pinobarbiedoll - madalas tong binabanggit ng mga pasyente sa ganitong paraan. ito yung barbiturate na anti-convulsant.
5. Binibining Undas - beauty contest ng mga taong kagimbal gimbal ang anyo.balak sumali ng nani ko dito.
6. Plez - pag nagmamakaawa ka na
7. Monosynaptic - pag ang nani ko eh tipong parang walang naririnig sa mga sinasabi ko at tuloy tuloy siya sa pagsasalita. Ex. nagpapabili ng laruan - kahit na sabihin kong di na dapat siya naglalaro ng toys na barbie doll, sige pa rin ang daldal na gusto niya ng princess barbie at yung rapunzel barbie.
8. Watusi - amoy ng ulo ng nani ko after 24 hours duty
9. Sonata - masangsang na amoy.... short for "SUnog Na Tae"
10. Muning- future pangalan ng pusa namin
11. Ipi- singular form ng IPIS
12. Barjer - yung tinapay na bilog na may karne at kamatis at lettuce at chez (keso)
13. Pichichan - manggagamot


These are just but a handful of continuously mutating vocabulary words that me and my nana are currently using to improve our relationship. Nevertheless, whatever form of communication we might adapt in the future, kahit na mag sign language kami or mag braille na lang, I will always be here to support my nani.

Love you very much. Happy 9th monthsary!

Top 10 Kilig Moments

Friday morning i was on my way to work, driving and listening to RX 93.1's morning rush... their topic was TOP 10 Kilig Moments. hearing the entries sent by listeners, i can't help but think of my own kilig moments. There maybe times when moments are deemed only by me as kilig well in fact it wasnt that "big of a deal" for my husband. Ever since i started with my residency, i felt that there are so many work to do. when i ask my husband that if its ok to quit coz i miss him so much... he would always say that "career people kse tayo". i had my psych exam for employment, and there was this part where i have to complete the sentences. One entry went "my work is...." i asnwered "is something i need to do for my family and my lover". i don't know if its just me, but ever since i had my husband, i have always looked work as something i need to do to for other people. having someone to share my life with, i have come to realize that life isnt a matter of my own comfort but includes the comfort of people around me and what would possibly dictate our future together.

This is my own top Kilig Moments:

1. I remember the first time me and my husband went to a date. eventhough we both saw each other's pictures prior to meet up, the fear that both of us has expectations that might not be met bothers me then. we were at red box, he was singing and in between his songs (he dominated the karaoke), he would make simple gestures that he wanted to hold my hand or hug me. at the car when it was time to drive him off back to his office, he held my hand and it all melted the ice away. that very same instance i knew i want him. he didn't know this until now, but i was in a total mess back then and i had to cover up things, him holding my hand even for just a moment secured my life.

2. It was the last day of my board exams. i was going out of my examination site, nearing the gate i saw people waiting outside... parents, boyfriends... i texted my husband that i wish he was there to wait for me. he texted back "wala man ako dyan para maghintay sau, but pag pumasa ka sisiguraduhin kong andun ako". and he did... he was with me when i saw my name in the internet and during my oathtaking.

3. there was this one time during my internship, when my husband asked me if i could accompany him to Manila Doctors to meet up some important people. he told me not to bring the car since he would be bringing the company car and the own driver with him. After our stint at MHD, i thought we would be going back to MCM, when he told the driver to go to Festival Mall. I asked him why and he told me he wanted to meet people at Healthway. We were already at the mall when he decided that we catch a movie instead. we didnt finished the movie coz we had to hurry back to manila for an urgency at my hon's office. he txted me later that day that we went to Festival Mall not mainly to meet people up for bussiness but to steal some time together.

4. way back, we had our first dinner as official couple. we were about to pay at the resto, when he pulled out his wallet and gave it to me. he said "you pay".

5. i was on duty yesterday, i was texting my husband how i miss him so much, that i wanted to quit residency coz it pulls off a lot of time. he said "konting tiis lang hon, di ka naman forever resident", to that i replied... "but forever ako asawa mo". my husband always has a way with making me feel better.

6. a few weeks back, i was talking with my husband on the phone, and i was venting out how bad i felt with my residency and with people senior to me. i was pikon coz i felt i wasnt being treated seriously by my husband. when suddenly he changed his voice from the witty, perked up comments, to a low, very forgiveful tone saying "di naman kita pinagtatawanan e". my husband seldom say sorry coz i know for a fact that its one word he deem so strong and so important. even if he doesnt tell me hes sorry i can feel he mean the same.

there a lot of kilig moments that i can think of but i just want to mention a few. its actually this topic or my top reasons why i want to quit residency. hehehe. i guess its a better way to cap off my weekend.

i hate to blow my cover, but im drop dead so in love with my husband. im so lucky coz i married my bestfriend.

i love you hon!

Stop for a while and smell the flowers.....

Being a perfectionist doesn’t mean that everything will and shall always be perfect. There are circumstances that can happen beyond the control of a perfectionist.
Let's take for example, nani's pre-residency experience at OM's OB-Gyne department. He was so happy prior to the first day of the program. Excited. Like a little boy who is about to take his first bicycle ride. First day of duty turned out to be exhausting (physically) but bearable. There was still some sort of fulfillment felt by my nani. I even visited nani and gave him his new camera from his sister in Singapore while he was attending to patients inside the delivery room of that disgusting hospital.Pero di ko na gusto itsura niya at that time. Mukhang toxic. Wasak. Madungis. Hindi ngumingiti. Post duty and another pre-duty were unremarkable. The most challenging one was his last duty before he gave up. He was asked to stay for like 38 hours or so by his senior residents which was really inhumane. I felt the exhaustion of my nani when he would call from time to time during his ER duty. He sounded physically and emotionally drained when we talked that night after his 38++ hours duty. I knew that tt wasn’t worth all the effort. Hindi lang ako nagsalita. Pero daming flaws ng department nay un sa OM. Unsystematic, lack of protocol and procedures, no standard guidelines, no nothing. These are the triggering factors why nani (and his friend Pam) finally decided to quit that f****** pre residency program at around 5 am last September 29, 2008. Sa sobrang antok ng nani, sabi niya, sige, ayoko na pumasok. Nyahahaha…..galing galing ng nani…claps claps claps. . It was really and actually a relief. Para kong nabunutan ng tinik when he decided to quit. I can just imagine his hardships. He wouldn’t eat on time. He wouldn’t sleep. He wouldn’t brush his teeth. He wouldn’t take a bath. Hindi nga siya nag pupu ng 38 hours eh! Lahat wala sa oras. Haaayyy..Buti na lang….Hindi na nagtuloy si Pam at ang Nana. Medyo nagbago na rin ang mood ng nani during that pre res program. Mainitin ang ulo. Mahilig mag tantrum. Emotionally labile..Buti na lang nag quit otherwise, lagi lang kami magsisigawan at away to the max ito!!!!!Peace nani!!! Hehehehe…. Life is not just OM. OM is not everything in this world. Dami pa nila options.Dami pa hospitals dyan. And besides, Nani can go to corporate muna for 1 year.

Good thing nga lumabas kami nila Doc Leah last Monday. Nani realized the kabulukan of that department. She gave nani the option to try to apply for a slot in ENT-HNS. If hindi naman matanggap ang nani, may mga options pa rin naman to work as one of our clinic doctors.Doc Leah is really one hell of good friend to my nani. And to US. Im glad she’s always around when we need someone to be with. Someone neutral. Someone who’s more objective.

For the past 7 months that we’re together, I’ve come to realize that my nani is really a character! Aside from his boyish tantrums and “trips” (playing internet games, making kalikot, etc. etc), I also came to know the perfectionist and obsessive compulsive ENRIQUE. He wants to plan things ahead. He has a lot of fears. Fear of the unknown. Hindi pa nangyayari, pinoproblema na. Gusto niya perfect lahat ng bagay. Gusto niya mangyari in accordance to his plans. He worries a lot. Actually, these were my traits when I was younger. Younger means during my med school. Pero when I finished my studies, I grew tired of worrying about what will I be in the future. I took some time off to do the things that I missed doing when I was so engrossed with my studies. I slept. I went out with friends. I tried drugs (though I am not encourageing my nani to try this coz he might be out of control! Hahahahaha). It helped me a lot to live a worry free life. When the time came for me to rebuild my life, everything just fell into place. God works in mysterious ways. He will always provide. And these are the things that I always tell to my Nani. He should not rush things. He should not worry too much. Swerte nga niya ang daming tao na nasa paligid niya to help him decide. To be of help sa career path niya. He has a lot of friends. He has a lot of options. And to say the least, I am always here for him no matter what happens.

The thing that he should consider is that he has the weapon to conquer the world. He is a doctor. He has the DRIVE to be successful in life. If he thinks that OB Gyne at OM is too much for him, he can go somewhere else. Different hospital. Different specialty. Being open to changes could really be of aid when someone is on the verge of quitting or losing grasp of his planned life. Not all things in this world will always happen in accordance to our plans. Sabi nga ni Ces Drilon kanina sa TV PATROL, she has always been rushing her way to the top. Look at what happened to her. Guilty rin ako sa ganung sitwasyon. Sabi nga niya, it was quite sometime when she last stopped from rushing and smelled the flowers….Me too…..I tend to rush things at work and on my way to the top. I tend to forget about the simple things in life that can make me happy. When I saw the amazing pictures that my nani took using his new Nikon camera ( with raindrops on petals his subject), I tried to recall….when was the last time I stopped rushing to work and tried to smell the flowers?...There was an unfortunate event that happened to me on my way to work last Tuesday. A sicko suddenly threw a stone at my car. It was damaged but I jut looked at the brighter side of the situation. Buti na lang kotse lang ang nasira. Im glad hindi ako ang tinamaan ng bato. Pasalamat pa rin ako.Masyado kasi akong nagmamadali sa buhay.

Perhaps, my nani should also take some time off from thinking about his future so much. Nandito naman ako and his friends to take care of him. I guess he should stop for a while and take more pictures of flowers so that wherever we are (even at work), we can look at the beautiful pictures that he took and imagine their sweet smell. I know that this will make us realize that there are simple things in this life that can always make us happy…..not just our career…not just material things. .But the simple creations of God that we tend to take for granted. In this light, pareho kaming hindi na prapraning at napapagod. Perhaps, he should take more pictures. And I will look at them. We will both appreciate the simple but beautiful things in life. :-)


Love you nani. Relax lang. Nandito ako for you lagi. Happy 8th monthsary!

rain drops part 2